今天，又是另一个上课的日子。。。
但令我意想不到的，是我的五个学生竟然同时过来！啊！！！杀我啊？？？而将要考小六检定考试的那两位，是多么的顽皮，这差点气死我也！！！
才说两句话，那小的又拿出手机来了！·#￥*%—~ 我的天哪！！！
“Bah, letak handphone tu cepat! Suruh ‘cewek’ telefon lepas 2 jam, fahammmm!!!???”
(Fine, put your handphone faster! Tell your ‘girlfriend’ to call you after 2 hours later, understandddd!!!???)
Then I have to go to the 2 PMR girls, approaching them for any possible questions in Mathematics,
As there is too many people today, I have to call my apple sis and my fifth bro to be ‘in-station’ today! Special Mission!!! He keeps an eye on the 2 very naughty UPSR guys, my sis do the same chore on the other 2 PMR girls…while me, sleeping??? Like sleeping beauty? Hohoho!!!! Of course NO lah!!! I have to teach a Form 2 guy, OK???!!!
Yet there’s some special changes that really makes me think a lot, make me so happy today :)
Yeah, it’s about the Form 2 guy. He’s from MRSM Kinarut, in short, Maktab Rendah Sains MARA, and for those that is quite (or absolutely!) unfamiliar with the Malaysians’ Education System, it is a very special institution constructed especially for those that achieve very good result during their primary school (or junior years).
And for the 1st, 2nd and 3rd day when I teach this guy, individually, face-to-face, one-to-one, he’s very quiet. I MEAN, VERY VERY quiet…That makes me wonder, worry very much…Whenever I say anything, he just nod his head. Sometimes I will question myself, do he really understand, or what???
So today I plan to do something else…I plan a session where the other 2 PMR girls will come together at the same time as his. Because, the other 2 girls are just his relatives as well, and he’s quite familiar with one the girls!
Usually, he’ll just complete all my questions, without much complaint, or even feedback. Truthfully, I don’t know this is a good thing or not. From the perspective of a GOOD teacher (Vomit!!!), fine fine fine…a GOOD TUTOR…I do think a student should be very sincere and truthful with his/her own progress and understanding, especially when he/she is requested by his/her tutor to do so!!!
And my ‘trick’ do works! Hahaha! Yippie!!! Today I see something awesome, a smile blossomed from his face, finally! Yeah, today! At 08/09/2010, it’s my one year anniversary for my Student Visa to start functioning! Hahaha~ (What de…like this link also ‘can’ ah???!!!)
When I see him smiling, I do ask him : “What’s so funny?”
He just pointing at those naughty Year 6 students, and smile again!
Thank God, he’s just another normal student, anyway~
Yeah, perhaps you’ll think, his happiness is none of my business…My job is to EDUCATE him…well, to certain point that’s absolutely TRUE…yet I realized that I do care for my students’ feelings and progress…I don’t want to be just a Robot Tutor, really!
And actually I do learn more today. I always thought that all students from MRSM must be bright, smart, intelligent…well, in fact I may be slightly wrong…I realized that his Geography is a little bit weaker…And I do advise him to understand Geography from logical thinking, and always learn to connect the knowledge learnt, just like in Maths…
For example, at Kedah (a state at Northern Part of Peninsular Malaysia), there’s a wide paddy field, named Dataran Kedah-Perlis. Low-land. It is called ‘Jelapang Padi Malaysia’ , as it is the main producer of paddy in Malaysia. Therefore, it is rich in the alluvium soil, and therefore attracted many people to live on it, as its importance as a rice plantation area (agriculture) in Malaysia necessitates the government to develop good public facilities there :)
And so on…
And so on…
So my student, this is how you link your Form 1 – Bentuk Muka Bumi dan Potensinya --- to Form 2 – Taburan Penduduk (Dinamik Penduduk) --- to Form 3 – Ekonomi Malaysia – Pertanian!
(to those that learn old syllabus Malaysians’ Geography, these concepts are introduced a year after our so called old syllabus. And we are just so lucky (or indeed, unlucky), to be the last batch of student to study on the old Geography textbooks that seems so outdated…(well, as usual, again…)
And so back to out topic: my students…well…indeed…all of my students are actually non-Chinese…They are the main-aborigine race in Sabah (Land Below The Wind!!! Hahaha~) – Yeap – Dusun, indeed! This is what I call the genuine ‘1Malaysia’! National Integration! When the races polarization is more and more conspicuous at the Peninsular Area, I’m indeed, more than grateful, to be able to live on this peaceful land, talking to my friends, Chinese, Dusun, Murut, Malay, or even some Indians!!! Yeah, it’s strange, but I’m just grateful to Him for arranging everything like this…at least I do work on something, and academic teaching is something that I do think I have some passion in…just like when I’m explaining whatever concept at the 24-hour-library at University of Bath, UK!!! Wakakaka~
And truthfully, I do enjoy the session with them, to have some obligation, to be able to have full dedication to complete it, and for most, to forget all the sadness that always haunted me so long time (already…) :)
I produce sets of notes…especially in Maths and Science, to cover those aspects, as my students are generally not very strong in academic one…And the Geography notes are mainly short notes, concise notes, extracted from my old notes (Yeah, I do keep them! OK! My old reference books)…It’s almost exam time, so I think it’s better to let them remember essential points, than those petty words, at these last minutes…
Therefore, I’ll have some work, even at Hari Raya night, well…indeed…life…never too bad :)
And suddenly remembered my Bath and UK friends, sometimes I feel that I do be able to share more stories among us…I realized that suddenly there’s a huge barrier that prevent me and them from doing so, don’t know what, I will never eva be able to explain my feelings completely, accurately…Sometimes I do feel I wanna share all the recent stories of me, and waiting sincerely for theirs as well…that’s fun? Isn’t it? Yet sometimes, after I pick up the home telepohone, finally, it will be: Ehm, perhaps I should just forget it? And therefore, yeah…nothing…
When I look back at the Buddha picture, I’ll think of CC and YH, be grateful for all her supports during my 1st year hard time…
And when I look at some very nice Buddhist quotations from Facebook, I’ll think about it for a while…yet will never click ‘like’ simply…I know…I will never practiced whatever said 100% completely, rightfully…Till now, I partially realized who is myself…I don’t want to ‘promise’ on something that I think I will hardly complete or never complete…yeah…and that’s even to the stage: Not even a ‘like’ at FB, if you know you can’t or won’t be able to complete it 100% nicely…well…
That’s me… :)
I still remember my first lesson: 活在当下… But I always think about my past, wondering about my future…I’m just, indeed, lose at this very simple lesson…
So, that’s’ why…sometimes…I do feel, I just lose all the confidence…sometimes…I feel…I’m just a loser…sometimes…I just hate myself, soooooo much!!!
LOST, indeed, really…
Looking at a close friend, she lose her identity, she feels so awful for all the unfamilarities….she cries silently, not wanting others to worry for her anymore…the gloomy cloud over the heart…Yet I insist, the same cloud not only rains on a single person. Indeed, more, as I know…
It’s 1:27 am 09/09/10.
Not feel to sleep. Yet, not insomnia, a long distance travel tomorrow, and just a normal syndrome…from a normal guy…
Just wanna finish my CBML, and prepare some teaching materials, later…
*Bonsoir*
*And thanks for reading, my longest ever blog*
*To all my regular visitors, I know who you are, there’s nothing much that I can do now, other than expressing my deepest and sincerest gratitude for your never-ending support*
*Till then*
Jack :)
2 comments:
good one!
thanx xy!
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