Started as the pharmacist

Starting job as a pharmacist - just finished my second week.

In between Christmas and New Year now.

That day started to 'lapor diri' - and from there I realised people are really nice here - as what I have expected. Even the chief is quite 'down to earth' - she is the one that brought me to wander around the pharmacy department - so that I started to get to know everyone. If God will allow me to become a 'senior' or chief in some way one day - then I hope that I will become such a good chief, too. To be honest - how high a person's nose can be, anyway?

And it seems like the stuff that  I am enjoying most now - is to prepare DD (dangerous drugs - and maybe, psychotropic substances)? I may be too early in making this conclusion. We should see...

On the 26th December, I was rushing in in-patient pharmacy, making syrups and doing filling (a.k.a. dispensing). And then I sighed for a bit, I should be doing crazy shopping now if I am still in UK - Boxing Day! Anyway actually it does not really matter - to be able to work and learning to carrying responsibility and contributing back to society - is much more better than running around like a crazy man to chase for latest fashion, or actually, out-dated fashion (purely personal opinion).

That day I was talking to the 'one-and-a-half-month senior-er PRP'. I used to thought that Malaysian healthcare system is some what excellent and affordable - everything started just RM1 or RM30 - yet actually, if it comes to complicated procedures - then you still have to pay - in full, or else, well...

And to my GF, please be alright. Update me about your health progress. I know it will be devastating sometimes. KS will be with you. Your family will be with you. I will be with you, too.

Just some scribble lah while I am rushing for my counselling assessment and assignment...

Till then,
J x

知己 祝福

深思下，才发现，就因为我们是好友、是知己，她才会把来自我的祝福，看得特别重要。。。

让我先来简述一下，这好几年以来，对生日祝福的心得。

大学一、二年级时，我，也许向往着别人对我的注意，因此在面子书上的每个生日祝福，都能让我觉得雀跃。。。我甚至还将每一个都拷贝起来，丢去了哪儿？嗯。。。忘了。。。但，一定还在。而我也通过面子书最忠诚的提醒，通常都不会忘了向我的面子书朋友们送上生日祝福。

渐渐的，人逐渐长大了，逐渐走出了刚刚进入大学是笼罩着我的阴霾。渐渐的，我发觉，靠着面子书的提醒而去祝福人家，是一种诚意？还是一种虚假？也许你会对我说，至少他/她愿意花费人生中“宝贵”的那几秒，或那几分钟，向他的朋友，献上祝福啊！我当初也是这么想——但后来，渐渐的，我连在面子书上祝福人家——也变得好“懒得”了。。。但是，通过电话或卡片所给予我的生日祝福，则仍然深深地感动了我。。。

11月16日，我忘了她的生日吗？没有，但看着在面子书上那每一张珍贵的与家庭、男朋友之合照，我觉得，这种实在的快乐——最重要。

今年，我终于能够在自家庆祝生日。但是，是否有“如愿以偿”、“兴高采烈”呢？没有。

“喂虾米（福建话）”？

因为仍然属于父亲的头百天忌日，再加上忙着筹备弟弟的毕业事宜，还有代课老师的事宜，由想起隔着南中国海的弟弟妹妹们也忙着温习、准备考试，我实在没有“心情”去“享受”生日。最后，连面子书上的生日祝福，也只是很含糊的看了一下。不是因为不够感恩，而是因为，当生活中有更急切的事宜时，我们的母难日，明白别人的心意，就好了。及时送上的祝福，我感谢；那些没有送上的，忘了也好，生活所需也罢，只要大家见面时，仍然是如初的亲切，让我们活在当下是，可以觉得爱与被爱——生活中还有什么，将会比这更可贵？

也许对一些个人来说，生日时的祝福是珍贵的。。。而我，即使没有100巴仙的同感，也绝对不可以一厢情愿的认为，别人可以认同我的看法和观点。。。

但更重要的，是我们曾经在生活中最需要的时刻，彼此互相扶持。即使现在因为时差、地理、加上其他种种因素，我们不再相死党似地联络——曾经在生活的轮胎，情绪最低点时，那句句包含着关心的文字，曾经实实在在地陪伴着彼此——我觉得，这些，才是最重要的。

想起我们每次对考试和未来的焦急与不安，我仍不忘彼此借给对方的“神笔”、“desserts”、运气等等。虽听起来很幼稚、虚假，但因而所诞生的信心，却是真、善、美的。

“海内存知己，天涯若比邻”。人的一生中，要找到朋友，并不难；然而若要找到知己，确实不容易。因此，愿咱们能在照着你，也照着我的月儿下，重修旧好。