Grateful

Suddenly feel so grateful to have such a bunch of friends around.

Slightly tired nowdays. The feeling is not very great, yet when you have friends that really can stand beside you, you will be very very grateful.

Still remembered receive a special thank from Jessica on the night. I question myself: Is my help sincere enough? Am I expecting anything? Do I really want to help her?

I cannot imagine the miserability of repeating another year, yet for those that have to, life goes on, and there's limited things that we can do, other than giving help PRN, and may be some best wishes STAT.

***

Regret. Yet what's done cannot be undone. Will continue on. Will continue on.

***

Thinking of advising a friend of how to avoid suicide.

It should only work if he / she cares about you.

It is harsh as what I can imagine, yet if somebody has to do it, then it has to be done.

NOT a mega-project like it sounds, LOL...

Perhaps wishes come in many forms anyway. It doesn't have to be charming, always.

Down

Down.

Hopefully, recover soon.

As simply, time is running... Life is continuing...

I just wondering, does the brain chemical, NA and 5-HT, can suddenly just running out, out of a sudden?

On Call 36 Hours

Actually life indeed, can offer more in our life =)











开首的一篇是某某出生　妈妈给宝宝奉上这一生头一吻
开端之后或晴或暗　怎样走就像连续戏也欠缺安稳

或者　于某集我可抬头欣赏到你
或者　一转念便要失去你
或者　转折渐太多　遗忘怎拥抱你
或者　拥紧偏已断气

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍想将你我这幕　演得更理想
能修补即管修补　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
熟悉的歌曲　等与你合唱
无人需要落寞的过场　前来铺满浪漫的过场

[转载来自 ※Mojim.com　魔镜歌词网]


新一章怎可是你我分开　可否改写得像你我当初还相爱
只可惜上集难逆转　伤感的下集仍然未播　我会修改

如果　当晚没有分神来紧张布置
如果　不必误会再猜疑
如果　将对白说得平和　不加讽刺
如果　真的可有下次

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍然能拖紧彼此　走绝地雪霜
能修补即管修补　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
明知可一起　不要再独唱

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍想将你我这幕　演得更理想
如能重修好一双　不要再想 再一刻谁亦要退下场
多得你在场 多得我在场 天空也在场 演好这一章 呼吸太无常

La 'song'

牆上合照跌在松木凳　平靜地看窗邊的暗燈
鄰戶或有百萬人像我　懷念某一個某一吻

有霉黃牆身做陪襯　有殘餘蠟燭可交出氣氛
有床頭時鐘在提我　時日飛過　再別上心

從前是巨大夢想　顯得我太渺小
落力幻想　想得我更困擾
那日誰因誰失神心跳　還保留多少
浪漫夜景找不到已破曉　夢寐大海觸不到已報銷
那日誰跟誰開懷一笑　在傷城之中消耗掉

陳舊電器也逐年壞了　連夜大雨天花都報銷
鄰戶或有百萬人睡了　唯獨我多記掛幾秒

那年曾同心被溶化　那時常重複簡單的笑話
那年頭颱風又懸掛　曾幻想過　建立個家

從前是巨大夢想　顯得我太渺小
落力幻想　想得我更困擾
那日誰因誰失神心跳　還保留多少
浪漫夜景找不到已破曉　夢寐大海觸不到已報銷
那日誰跟誰低廉的愛　在高樓之間消耗掉

消耗了

That's why life is worth to live

好朋友最近不是很想得开。。。

还记得好久以前的我，就是现在的他/她。。。

当局者迷，当你现在那种所谓“为何一切都是我？”的漩涡而不能自拔时。。。

生活本身，就是一份严峻的考验。

生活里其是隐藏着那些祝不完的blessings =)

一时看不见，不代表永远都看不见。。。

时时感恩，永远永远，要为自己的生活负上责任。。。

还记得那份属于自己的记忆？那些快乐、光荣、感动、幸福的时光？

生活就是因为这些霎那的美好而继续worth to live。。。

给自己一点时间，慢慢去发现——上帝从来没有放弃过你。

你的生活不只属于你——请永远记得那些和你分享生活中点点滴滴的家人、亲戚、朋友、同事、社会。。。

请记得不但要为自己负责，还要为他们负责。

放弃自己就是自私，就是不负责任。。。

当你终于熬过一切而再回头望时，你会惊奇于自己的能耐——OMG...I just can't believe it!

而成长的喜悦，也许就是这么简单？

我们还有一段很长的人生路，要继续跑下去——生活中隐藏着许多祝福，等待你去探索、发掘、惊奇着——that's why life is worth to live =)

Nirvana

Nirvana

Finally, I am back to Bath again.

The feeling of relieved, the sense of real belonging, and the life, seems to be more meaningful.

I still cannot forget the feeling at that morning at Ghent.

Out of all sudden, I missed my siblings, so so much...

I remembered my glorious history of getting Pelajar Harapan 2004, and then Anugerah Khas Pengetua 2006.

And astonishingly, my bro, 'Ang', was getting a Pelajar Contoh as well.

And on the same day, my sis, only sis, was getting her Pelajar Harapan at the same day.

I am not at the school hall, of course, at that time, to view such victorious moment.

I am glad i don't, I did not want to cry, even slightly, in front of the public.

And last year, again, my sis was presented with Pelajar Contoh.

I am not here to 'show off', yet I suddenly, feel so proud to be a 'cool' brother, that I wanna write it out here.

Their happiness, my happiness.

Even though they may not feel the same.

They are individuals, yet each of them, independent of sex, size, body shape, behaviour etc, each of them is my brother, my sister, and we share the same blood, coming from the same womb.

Perhaps the feeling of more than touched cannot be expressed exactly with words anyway, yet that's what I have now. And I should write in Mandarin Chinese really, yet I just feel that, as long as I record this, today.

I just don;t wanna lose, or forget, this feeling, completely, 'hush', just like the blow of the Monsoon.

No matter how busy I am as a pharmacist or whatsoever in the future, I shall remember that I was, and I am, I will be, still, a son, a brother, a nephew, a senior, a junior, a friend, a mate, and even, a father.

Suddenly all of feelings, start to fill my determination, for that so called - 'future'.

***

Off, back to Bath, again.

8 days trip from Malta, and Belgium, officially, over.

Everything seems to went smoothly, with some small drama in between. Which if I have time, I would, perhaps, mention them, or not, in the future, here, or somewhere.

Yet may be not in 'Jackie-morphosis', apology guys, I am, 'busy' (excuse...come on!).

In the end actions will determine everything.

***

Finally, I shared a few songs that have accompanied me throughout my journey, at oversea, for these 8 days. These are just extract, as I had been listening to so many Fish's songs, on my way, back to this land, of familiarity.