好想好想——情深深、雨蒙蒙

今晚看到他们的笑脸=）笑了=）

小瓜们听音乐喝看漫画书的笑脸=）

今晚有妈妈、意义和舅舅的陪伴。那种温馨的感觉，绝情来说，是暂时性的。然而正因此，我们更应该珍惜因缘，努力活在当下。

以本身浅浅的佛法知识，也许简单的句子也说错了，如是的话，敬请大家多多包涵，并加以纠正！

转眼间，后天，就要走了，就要走了。星期六时，沙巴场下的艳阳仍然会不去我的阴霾，心里灰灰的、暗暗的，很没有劲儿。

我知道，要走了，心情很是沉重，千斤，万斤不下吧。

但同时，我惭愧了，非常惭愧。我没有好好去珍惜想学习的喜悦，珍惜上帝所赐予的机会。想安于现状，而这正是最自私的写照——只为了自己的舒适感。。。摒弃了任务、忘记了责任、使命感也变得模糊了。

这，不该发生，不应发生，不允许它发生。。。

Well。。。

看着弟妹们相聚在一块儿的笑脸，顿时停顿了一下。一切，都是值得的。果然世界上的幸福，像陈威全的简单。果然，施比受更有福。

今晚终于能好好的和母亲相处了——再回来一个月后——终于！我明白，也许大家不会明白。平日的我和母亲，工作忙碌，我们因此忘了珍惜彼此在一起的时间——人往往就是最临时抱佛脚的动物——越是遥远的，越是不重视，唉唉唉。。。

而那一日全家上山拜拜时——同时有顿悟了会儿——父亲的爱，与贡献。我老是埋怨抱怨，为何我的父亲。。。这个那个。。。但仔细想想——至少他肯为家里出份力, 至少现在比以前好， 至少他仍爱着我们——人长得越大，越是对父爱作出了否认——身为子女的，该当何罪？要何时才能醒目些呀？唉唉唉。。。

回来的一个月，若以数学的graph做份非正式统计——家里的支出费应该是急速上升——嗯，我也真是一个好儿子。。。

一次的落叶归根之旅——仍然有那分潜意识的执著，仍然吟唱着那份相煎至爱，仍然是最熟悉的、最温馨的家与其成员，刷新了对家里的那份归属感和认同感。。。

而最后，感谢在根地咬时不离不弃，仍然记得我的朋友们——喝茶的、喝酒的、看戏的、出夜街的、打长途电话的。。。

当生活中必须已被认定是非必需的时候——又是另一份成长的阶段——有人换了眼镜，换了发型，换了衣装——原来，爱，幸福，感恩，都很简单。

回巢的路，很远——

回巢的路，很近。

只要拘束的身影在望——

我们奋飞的意志不断！

离别前夕，一首又悲又楚楚的古歌，重新唤醒了那长睡的记忆——是时候——醒了。

落叶归根之旅

Hardly believe that I have only a post so far for the month of September this year, excluding this one...

It's the moment to leave - everything that I am familiar, back to somewhere that I am, or was, familiar, also...

I still remember my friend's words on the night - s/he cannot express his/her opinions/feelings in exact words anymore - and feel more than sad about that - as she used to be a good writer / blogger before...

Indeed words cannot express everything accurately in our life - word is still limited with its ability to expand in vocabulary, grammar, intonation, alphabets, etc...

Losing such ability may not be a bad thing - to a certain extent - it means s/he has been able to leave out what's haunted him/her for few years - and of course that sounds more than a great thing to celebrate =)

I am working for the same goal now...

Again I am grateful to God to let me have this 落叶归根之旅. I re-find my strength, my goal and my own identity - in this quiet, tranquil and peaceful lifestyle, in a small yet busy buzzling town/city of Keningau - in the mountainous region of interior part of Northern Borneo =)

It's the time to appreciate the long live sunshine - almost 12 hours per day - in Malaysia - before I am back to autumn, cold, windy, lonely sometimes - in Bath...

I will definitely remember the dawn, morning, noon, afternoon, sunset, evening, and nightfall - here...

生于斯，长于斯，若有缘，业于斯，死于斯=）

In the Middle of Summer Holiday 2

In the middle of this holiday, just a quick shot for everyone.

Life at home is always the sweetest, seems endless, which is indeed, a wrong sense of safety, as anything so good will always come to end, anyway.

After home for this time, it's just suddenly some of the feelings change. I start to lose trust, not completely, in certain people that I used to believe, wholeheartedly, in my life. Yet God never ever let me completely down. I found a new goal at the same time. Not say completely new but it is enough to keep me moving on.

Sounds so deep indeed, especially if i refuse to explain too much, sorry guys...

At the same time, travelling from Penzance and then back to my hometown now. Not gonna be to Brunei anymore although requested, life just seems quite busy now, with students around me. Some of the close friends do know...

At the same time, I had been in a sort of new thinking. I used to think that every friendship is just 'like that', which appears to be wrong, again. My good friend makes me realise that:

同心用心诚心经营的友情才会永远开出美丽的友谊之花。

感谢你，朋友！

Every word counts in this case you know. Three hearts, may be more, is needed. When you thought you can let it go, yet when the other one really sincerely works it out, the flower of friendship, no matter how cold the winter is, will blossoms again.

I am more than thankful to finally be shown who I can rely on, at least for this moment. Life and friendship can be based on formality and informality. A true friend is when you can be yourself in front of him/her, without wearing a mask, that may makes yourself not comfortable sometimes.

A sincere and the only wish that I receive to wish me Happy Mooncake / Lantern Festival, is more than a best reminder. Perhaps a friendship that is not bound by the so-called 'couples' love', will turn out to be the best in your life.

带个平常心，真心祝福一对幸福的情侣。看着友人的幸福，也许就是一种幸福。

Indeed life is not difficult. Yet there;s too many situations that makes me feel otherwise.

哀莫大于心死。

This applies to some of my family members as well as some friends. Indeed when you think you give out 100% you should not think of getting 100% back, and otherwise. In the end people used to judge others but they always forget to see themselves. Undeniably that;s what happen to me sometimes. I won;t deny.

Life teaches me wisdom day by day, as I am growing. I am indeed a slow catcher. Yet with continuous support from my family and my friends that I can count on: I am gonna be ALRIGHT =)





Indeed my holiday is not long anymore. Aunty will come soon......

To my bros and sis, perhaps you will never ever read this. Yet beside the moody clouds and long angry speech that may make you boring sometimes, I always L.O.V.E you all =) To see you all studying hard, be so obedient, with all the laughters and smiles, and even when you sleep so soundly - I shall not, ever ever, forget them.