A little excitement in a monotonous life

Early winter

In the early winter of Bath, I suddenly miss my friends and family, back in Malaysia, so so much...


How's Ang Ang's STPM?

What's her speciality at the end?

How are them in general?


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I am getting further and further away from her.

Yet I know that she is getting closer and closer to her real love.

I smiled, silently, because I know I had made the right choice before.

If you know you can't make someone happy, let her go, she deserves a better one.


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Waiting for a reply now, silently...

Jingle bell, jingle bell...


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23112012 之日记一则

今天庆祝婉茹的生日。

大家都很开心。

而我也好久好久，没有像今天这么轻松了。

人哪，累了，总得要停下来，休息，哪怕一下。。。

好珍惜能和大家在一起的时光。

只因为，再过多八个月后，咱们不知在何时何地，才能（在次）相见。

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其实，隐隐约约，我的一部分，有想去土耳其的冲动。

但更多的我认为：
我，有一些放不下；
我，不想失去自己；
我，有更重要的使命。。。

感谢那周孤独的旅程，我变得坚强多了。我不再怕需要一人上路。。。只因为，只要有积极的信念，四海皆顺也。。。

伊斯坦布，那座跨越欧亚大陆的大城市。。。


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回家的路上。

路过的河水 ，清澈的稀里哗啦。

想起英国的冬天，正式来了。。。

今天五点就做完了lab works。。。然后就和groupmates肩并肩，浩浩荡荡的走下Bathwick Hill 。。。

举头望明月啊：）

再想起，Kenny 对我说，有些人，总是埋怨自己的孤独。

学习让自己变成自己的好朋友， 而我，还在慢慢学习着。。。

走着走着。。。突然想起：最近的你，还孤独吗？

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"You are the best thing that ever happened in my life."

That is so touching - yet the truth is, some words are just so hard to be pronounced clearly in the real life...

IQ

The topic in the lab today is about IQ.

It's quite a shame when research showed that a proportions of teenagers that should for GCSE (SPM) only have the reading ability as a 10/11-year-old.

While some people cannot understand it, I cannot understand why they generally cannot understand such a situation...

It's quite prominent like in a small town where I came from.  People that suppose to sit for the same examination have different level of intelligence (IQ).

Some people are gifted and therefore they understand many things easily and quickly, while some people may need some time to digest and take up things, while some may be even not that lucky, they try to understand but they just cannot.

Acceptability of a particular knowledge just depends on too many factors - interest, environment, family influence, brain physiology, language, etc...

Even like a pharmacist, if a patient just cannot understand what you are saying - it does not mean that they are stupid, or they pretend that they do not want to listen to you. If you try to put in more patience and empathy, may be that will make you realise that, some patients just cannot understand - why not adopt another way(s) to help him/her then? Carer, social worker, diagram, picture...

I think the main issue is due to time factor as well as "I cannot be bothered" factor - people become especially realistic once they step into work place, generally...

So if the next time if someone said they don't understand, and you know, and you have the time, why don't try to explain to him/her in a simple way? With the hope that he/she will understand - and even if he/she only partially understand or still do not get it, believe that he/she will be grateful to you, just because of your patience, willingness and generosity.

Only when you fall in the shoe(s) you start to know more about life - and sometimes I wonder - am I too lucky, or not, for that?

Diary for 17112012

I had a great trip to Southampton with mon amis today.

It's been ages since I get on a car in UK. Of course, I was not the one driving...

The surroundings were just awesome. We passed through a few cities / towns, including Salisbury, Endover (interesting name to me) and...etc...

Leaves on the way were either yellowish or orange - the colour of a typical autumn. It will be my last autumn in the UK...Still remembered how the autumn celebrated my arrival in Bath as well, about 3 years ago...

Today was just a plainly leisure trip - we had some lunch (Chinese), followed by a shopping trip, accompanied by a German Christmas Market just in front of West Quay :) Everybody seemed so happy and cheerful. I decided to become a tourist with the camera again, eventually...

Then finally the dinner part, it was the lobster starter followed by typical Chinese dinner with a combination of dishes. Simon was just sooooooo funny. Poor Simon? He longed for traditional British food just after two consecutive Chinese dishes in a single day. At least there will be Sunday Roast tomorrow so no worries...

Finally, home, not too late, just that the mahjong session was cancelled as well...arrgghh.......

The funniest thing is, my biggest purchases for today came from two shops: Poundland and 99p shop.

Kirstin asked me, what was the difference, anyway???

Well man, the answer is obvious - with 99p you get 1p change when you pay 1 pound isn't it?

Thanks to Kenny, Guarino, Carol, Cindy, Joo, Chi Chin, Yean, Simon and Kirstin...It was really great to be away from Bath, even if it was just for a day :)

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I could saw the great unity of Malaysians when I paid them a visit.

Happily living together under the same roof and forming a great support network...

I could see that for a long time ago - and it is a phenomenon that perhaps I had missed so much, intrinsically...

I gave up the chance when it came to me few months ago, and therefore I have no excuse for bearing the results now...

Perhaps only after you miss something then only you will start to appreciate it. The typical words of wisdom...

I wish I have such an easy-going housemates, where actually I can forget mouthful of English for a while and start to revert back to Malay. Malay language that had accompanied me since baby always give me a sense of warmth...

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When you love someone so deeply, any sacrifice that you made for him/her will not be considered as a sacrifice anyway...

You will be willing to go for that extra miles of distance - although you may not see the final smile on his/her face...

Eventually you just want to sincerely wish him/her the very best...

As love always exist...so as the hope...


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Falling For You

Too many happened

Too many happened without myself realising it, recently...

1. My birthday gift expiry date is almost due I suppose - while I need to say goodbye, I wanna say a huge thank you as well for all the good memory...

2. When you try to fight for something although you know that the outcome may be not that favourable at the end. Sounds complicated, perhaps the fighting process is enjoyable anyway. Although it is heart-breaking to get the result, perhaps you will regret if you never ever fight for it. Well, at least, that's me.

3. I know the world has always been that realistic - but when the person that you can trust most start to doubt your personality - you will continue to believe him. At the same time, you should be happy because he has grown up, or be sad because he needs to give you some hard time?

4. It is more than touched when you realise that your friends will not always abandon you (alone). However perhaps the right news will not always come at the right time.

5. Due to inspiration from prescribing course, I started to made my sibling sending me some weekly task as well online so that I can monitor his progress (lol).

6. Mom was started on some medication. I know I am looking at the BNF 63 when I gave her the counselling but at least it's better than the doctor that never tell patients anything in Malaysia...On the other hand, how can a long-term medication can just be supplied for a month?

7. I keep smiling when I looked at the latest photos of my siblings at everywhere in Malaysia. Some of them reminded me of my very own personal experience. I feel so proud of them and hope that they are always alright.

8. Finally I feel that I will go back to Malaysia and (hopefully) become a great pharmacist there. I am not sure how much that I can do but perhaps whatever that I feel is the best. I look very forward to work with some of my friends as well.

The shape of my heart

You are my everything