无题

似乎每天早上上课时都要带着痛苦的心去上课。。。

醒来时。。。就要聆听及想象一切动静。。。

温习时，思绪会不时飞去另外一边。。。

朋友们都说：为什么花这么多的心思。。。让自己痛苦。。。值得吗？

现在还是值得的问题吗？

何况。。。这不是一人所能解决的问题。。。

问题出现了。。。

但永远不愿意解决。。。

永远逃避。。。

再拖下去。。。最后。。。

要天真地认为时间会冲淡一切？

还是要勇敢承认：将会有痛苦继续存在？

Inform me, sil vous plait...

I would appreciate tat any important info is done by sms after failing to call me...
This could save the owner of a lost property a hell lot of worry where he put his stuff n searching...

心剖一记

今天SCAN的成绩终于已经出了！经过漫长的等待和SCAN PROCESS, the official result is:


'Gallstone-Negative"


但在我还没走之前。。。那radiologist"赏"一句让我印象深刻的话：


You looked stressed and tired...Better take more rest...Your pain at the upper right abdomen is absolutely not due to gallstone...


有这么明显吗？


还记得在意大利旅游时，在一件小店买gelato来吃。。。然而当我付钱时，那cashier抛给我一句话：你的左手是怎么了?


"Oh nothing, just some small accident at the kitchen. Haha..."


我实在不知还能怎样反应?


SCAN result negative...无病无痛...这不是应该值得庆祝的事情吗？


然而，回到城市中心过后，慢慢地走在那一有些漆黑的大路上，身体突然又起了几个颤抖。。。要回家了。。。又要回到那熟悉的小房间了。。。但这时笼罩我的：


是害怕。。。
是犹豫。。。
是担心。。。


这种感觉...从当初的不知所措...一直抗拒...到今天的...是麻木吗?麻木了就不应再感到害怕...是接受了吗?接受了怎么还会觉得这么痛苦?


在市中心转那转哪...思绪还是很乱...很乱...


所以受到这样的scan result固然可喜...然而若真正有选择...宁愿体会physical pain...也不想再面对emotional pain...


皮肤表面上的伤口...还能等时间这个医生...


但...


心灵上内心深处的伤口...即使有时间冲淡...还能够百分之百复原吗?


老实说...我承认这个机会的存在...不是因为我太天真...充满希望...而是因为我本身已尝试过另外一段经历...当时和一位朋友也闹到不是很愉快...当初我也不能接受...然而随着时间的流逝...我们从讲几句话...变到中五的无话不谈...因为我当时仍然抱着随时接受的心态...我从来不死心...而现在即使大家不再常常联络...自己知道...这份友情永远,永远存在...而当我在吉隆坡或家乡与她重聚时...那份感动永远历历在目...


但这次的case study很棘手...我不知还能够继续顶多久...坦白来说...现在的生活拍子已开始失去原有的规律...上课...温习...吃饭...睡觉...都蛮乱了...自己也真的无所适从...不想早上一起身就只看到一片阴沉的乌云...巴斯的阳光其实蛮暖和...但来了这么久...自己似乎没有真正去享受过...


而这一切...因为我知道...像上次的情况一样...


我仍然抱着随时接受的心态...我从来不死心...


一份友情得来不易...相处了那么久...开心的...伤心的...生气的...生活中的点点滴滴...以经历了不少...所以汝能杀吾身...但决不能杀吾心!


\That's why I still believe in the presence of love...


每一份相处的时刻...都能让我开心,感动,所以我万分感激...


我怀念过去那难忘的时光...


我珍惜现在每分每秒的感动...


我向往更美好的明天...


然而...


时间哪!


我会跨过去吗?

凡走过必留下痕迹...

向往过去……

厌恶现在……

怎样改变未来？

是时候让自己冷静下来把事情慢慢的解决了

From: http://lifeislikeadonkeyinawell.blogspot.com/

没有事

闹事时就有事。。。

不闹事时也有事？

吵架时就有事。。。

安静时也有事？

讲到激烈时就出事。。。

好好讲也要出事？

没有事。。。没事。。。

还会有这样的一天吗？

还有多少路等着你走？

当你觉得世界都想要放弃你时，山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村，还有多少路等着你走？

当我们觉得被遗弃时，重点是，是否连自己都放弃了自己呢？山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村，脚下这一条路等着我走。^^

加油！！你的人生还很长~不要绝望~

时间哪！我会跨过去吗？

亲爱的的朋友们，我们之间。。。


是什么给我这种感觉？


我想快快逃离。。。


然而，时间他最现实。。。


耐心等待。。。


一切需要要时间。。。


时间会治疗最深的伤口。。。


这是中华民国几千年的名句精华之一吧。。。


但我应该相信时间的能力吗？


还是我应该成为自己的药剂师，


为自己开多一剂 Fluoxetine?


朋友们。。。我还是愿意等待。。。


因为：冬天去了，春天还会远吗？

只要能看到你的笑容就足够了:)

That's life...Sometime we just don't realise what others have done for us- Be it in front of or behind the scene...So sometimes we 'tak sempat' to say thanks to them- Not because you don't want to thank him/her, but simply because you just don't realise his/her contribution at that time. Yet a true friend will not think much about it. A help given is a help given indeed, no matter the outcome is very good/good/ok/whatever (!!!), at least he/she has done what he/she think is the best thing that he/she can do within capabilities at that time...

Sometimes life is like that...We expect a lot from others yet we have to realise that the world will keep rotating no matter what's our perception is...No one will change him/herself will change his/her personality completely in order to suit others. Every person has his/her own principles of life, lifestyle, 'code of ethics'...And you should realise an important point: We can change ourselves, or we can always expect others to change to meet our expectation. Yet which option will be easier for your life?

My experience for one semester teaches me: You can choose to see life negatvely and hope that others will always suit your need, which usually won't be, at the end...So then it's a time to choose: repel it (and be in suffer) or accept it (wholeheartedly, if possible).

Sometimes after people has done something, we see it yet we'll think something like: He/She should have done this, then everything will be better...It's never wrong to have such expectation. Its never wrong to advice people, especially when the advice is really useful to him/her indeed. Yet sometimes people is people, they can't remember your every single words 100%. They may absorb and practice 50% or 30% or etc in your life (which is quite Ok already), or they may just ignore your words (worst!).

And majority mistakes are done unpurposely...People feel bad when they realise they do mistake...And sometimes people don't realise it until they 'hit' by something! Shouldn't we be more than willing to forgive these? If not, life with cycle of counting will just never end...life with a lot of 'reminders' doesn't sounds so nice...hmm...

Life indeed should be meaningful if you managed to find out your motivation. You live due to that yet don't ignore your obligation to others at the same time. You are still a son/daughter, brother/sister, friend, student, blogger, neighbour, customer, etc, etc... So at the moment when pursuing your life goal be prepared to put allowance for other obligations. Indeed they should not be viewed as obligations...Be sincere and do your best when you are a friend/student/neighbour/etc, then you should discover that you can lead a quite happy life...as everything around you works so well...not say all within your expectation (life is never 100% perfect), but at least you managed to accept everything and live along with that...

Hmm...That's long...Theory is usually easy but practise is usually the most difficult part...Again, THAT'S LIFE :)

And one more thing, life is a never ending wishing journey:
I wish my father and mother always be healthy.
I wish my brother and sister do well in their studies and/or works.
I wish my friend always be happy.
I wish...
I wish...

A smile to your life is more than enough, then...

心才够阔...

道谢时却不看对方的眼睛。。。道歉时却不看对方的眼睛。。。这是真诚的感谢吗？这是真心的对不起吗？有些事生活再忙也不能草草、一笔带过啊！天下事有难易乎？为之，则难者亦易啊！用心体验、体会生活！不时的慰问，关心，提醒，会有多难？

PIYA: 别人真诚与否不重要，最重要是自己不去要求别人为自己做什么，心才够阔~~

When? When? When?

When will Mr. Tan post his precious advice and physics tips, again to his ex-students?

When will we 4 guys managed to find our ideal house at Bath?

When is the moment when I will enter the door of Royal United Hospital, Bath?

When will I see the offer to buy flight ticket back to Malaysia?

When will my Mancunian friends visit their Bathonian friends?

AND, last but not least:
When can I stop thinking about unnecessary stuff in my life?

Happy Chinese New Year + Special thanks!

Finally see the face of Aylwin Lim at Bath! Oh my! So glad to see him!

Thanks Aylwin to being so willingly to come this peaceful Georgian city and choose to have a wonderful stay with us here! Enjoy it! I'm sure Bathonions will give you lots of fun and cheerful memory! 1st time celebrate my CNY at UK, and we are just lucky enough to have a Londoner with us here! And Aylwin, your cooking skill still very very good! Our regular Bathonion cook can rest for a while already! Haha~~~

Thanks Sin Yee for 'fetching' Aylwin up to the university!

Thanks Kenny for bringing Aylwin to wondering around Bath and share the cooking jobs as well...plus a thanks to Guarino in this case ~~~

Thanks Ang for help opening door to Yean, although there is some small funny incident there (Hahaha~~~)...

Thanks Yean and Carol for turning up! Yean, your chocolate is superb nice! I love the mint flavour!

And, guys, really thanks to you all to let me have a so less stressful and relaxing meeting like today! Love it!

Tomorrow, oops, today - lah! Today night will be a precious reunion dinner for us! Because we will spend our first CNY oversea, at UK! And 'bai nian' among Bathonions! Doesn't it sound fanstastic?

Whatever...Waiting for reunion now, plus Sin Yee, Wan Joo, Jecerlyn, Jessicca, erm... who else yeah? Whatever lah...surely will be a memorable one!

Perhaps I should make a promotion for my blog also at the same time? Seems like my blog is still known by 3 or fewer people only? Hmm...must consider about it seriously...Perhaps I should advertise it in a newspaper or on UK television?

Anyway, guys, Happy CNY again!!!

Happy CNY~~~

Just discuss renting issue with my dear friends just now~~~

Yeah, so they will be 4 of us staying together~~~

Yeah, and we sort it out before Easter Holiday...Hopefully...

And if they don't remind me, I'll forget that this Saturday is a day for Chinese Reunion...

And thanks for Aylwin, willing to spend his precious time with us at Bath...

You will have a good time here...Bathonions are so warm and friendly!!! Hehe~~~

Happy CNY to all...Although there is no real holiday for us...We still have CNY! So appreciate...

Happy CNY to all, again...

爱还是一道光吗？

爱还是一道光吗？

但我知道，我还是为了爱而活者。。。

为了我爱的人。。。

为了爱我的人心。。。

因为爱

所以爱

Class Tomorrow

Tomorrow I'll start my semester 2...Hopefully it'll be a very good start!

Silent NOT Ignorant

Being silent doesn't mean you are being ignorant...Your feelings are still there...

To my friends, I maybe silent yet my voiceless moral support will accompany you, always!

Friendship is tight by appreciation, supporting to each other, truthfulness, tolerance...

Remember that even the biggest storm in London will not stop our foodsteps to move forward!

Memory in Manchester!

Five days and four nights at Manchester…It’s a mixture of feelings:
Happy, Sad, Angry, Thankful, Tired, Meaningful!

Conclusions to be made:
1. Manchester’s stuffs are definitely cheaper than Bath! (Majority)
2. Convenience is undeniable! All within a single street!
3. Love Quality Save, Lidl, Asda…
4. Well it’s great and quite convenient to have a common room for yourself at usual days and your friends for some days?
5. Manchester is really international! You can find all kinds of races and languages here! There’s Chinatown and Rusholme, which is absolutely nice!
6. It’s a convenient and quite affordable city, and more friendly and compact to me (London will be quite tiring?)

Special thanks to the Manchunians (correction from Manchurian at previous post, hehe…).

Thanks Jing Hui and Yun Yi for their common rooms, bathrooms, laptops…

Thanks Chiew Yee to accompany me to the Pharmacist…

Thanks Mei Chi and Corrine for sharing their experience at Manchester with me…

Thanks Aileen and Wan Hui for the buss pass and invaluable trip to Asda!

Thanks Xin Yuan for letting us her common room as well at Cardiff 

Thanks Yean Hui and Jessicca for struggling with the taxis when we are at Bristol…

Not for getting others…Your wait…Your patience…Your laughter…

The journey has end yet the memory, the story, shall not… 

Another memorable trip in my life: Manchester, United Kingdom….