中秋节反思

Officially is in the process of sickness now. May be not Fresher's Flu (since I am not a fresher anymore) - may be more like a cold, in nature. But my backache is my real headache now - feel it is more like muscular sprain but not that sure - when the paracetamol and ibuprofen is going to work...?

Anyway, just finished reunion with the girls at 66.

Their 'cheerfulness' and hospitality did brighten up my heart, a bit.

女孩子们的喧闹反而衬托了我内心的寂寞。其实，日子久了，我渐渐地发现：我对太多人的场合容易反感。这是anti-social吗？我，不懂。

但是，至少有了他们的陪伴。当那些蜡烛被‘亮’起的当儿，我的心，也隐隐约约雀跃起来。

走过熟悉的Moorland Road, Herbert Road 和 West Avenue，还是老样子——就连心情，似乎也是一样。走哇走哇，才隐隐发掘：对于有些问题，我一直以来，一直都没有解决的办法，所以惟有不停不看不闻不问。。。只因为，我，没有更好的办法。

今晚的月亮，很圆很圆。虽然乌云密布，为含羞的月亮增加几层神秘的面纱，但今晚的月亮，还是很圆很圆。

明天就要开课了——Officially, 这将是我的大学生涯，最后一年，的第一天。没有多少份期待。。。但我终相信——该来的，总是要来的。船到桥头，自然直：）

"Happy back to uni." - Well, thanks guys, you too :)

Sighing on Mooncake Festival

An extract from a drama that I would like to share:

'At least I have learnt one more thing: At the end of the day, you are actually alone, on this world...'

"You ask yourself how can this happen to you, and may be, only you....How the Earth can keep turning...Nothing make sense anymore. All you feel is just tremendous pain..."

"And eventually, the sun shines again, and the birds, are chirping..."

"NO...The pain becomes duller, and becomes a part of you...BUT...it will never fade away, completely..."


Today is the mooncake festival - and in Bath and North East Somerset now...the sky is gloomy, the colour is grey...

However, I will wait for the nightfall...When the moon shines again...it's the moment of reunion - with friends, family and simply, those that you love, so much...

***

An extract:

Have you ever love someone?
Did you once love someone?

Someone who made you think...
The one that you belonged to?

You can't just searched for someone like that...
(S)he finds you...and suddenly...
Everything makes sense.
It just feels whole.
Complete.

Suddenly, everything seems somehow possible.
Everything is yours to have.
And, there is none to stop you.
It's the most beautiful feeling that exists.

And perhaps...
This is the first time you feel like this, in your life.

Actually we have changed - to a 'better me' ?

Recommended songs from my friend - Nebula.

Enjoy!

and

Actually we all have changed - but - are we changing for the better?

FaCT or FaKE

Down.

Maybe SAD is started again, gradually...

Suddenly realise, may be we don't have to know all the truths in our life.

Sometimes, turn on a blind eye, or a deaf ear, is a better solution than anything else.

And sometimes, perhaps, a white lie, works better than a truth.

How many truth is important in our life, for our life, to our life, anyway?

In short, faCT or faKE, sometimes, doesn't matter, at all.

Because may be deep inside your heart, you have known the ultimate truth, anyway...

OR may be because, well, you will rather believe a white lie, rather than a truth, which can reveal selfishness, cruelty, brutality, or may be, worse...

** What if I love someone but it's just not enough to marry him/her?
** Then you must tell him/her...
 

My good friend

A good friend is someone that you feel close to you.

Someone that will encourage and motivate you in the moment of misery.

Someone that will be happy for you and your success, even just a small one.

Someone that dare to share every small, petty pieces of life puzzles.

Someone that will always be there for you even though separated by time and distance.

Someone that you will want to send your deepest and sincerest regards.

Someone that you will keep on your mind, in the moment of joy, sorrow and even nothing.

Someone that you simply can present the reality of yourself.

I never realise that I will be so lucky to have a good friend in my life.

Only until just now, I start to realise.

Dear, thanks to come into my my life.

I am sorry if my happiness is your sorrow.

I am sorry if I cannot reply to your every message, instantly.

Thanks to be my source of motivation, inspiration and determination.

Thanks to give me the strength to move on.

You know how much I appreciate you, just like you.

Last but not least

*** Friendship Forever ***

谈恋爱

今天得知一位朋友‘终于’已经与另一位朋友，开花结果。

顿时间，很感慨——好久以前，仍然守护着那份约定：谁以后先找到‘另一半’的，大家都要请他/她一餐哦！

光阴似箭——如今，所谓儿时的约定，终于到了实现的时候。

隐隐约约记得当初和大家所说的，属于我自己的故事。父亲曾经对我说: 缘份是一件很微妙的东西——该来的时候，就会来了；若时间还没到，你怎么急也好，它就是不来。

我曾经以为，属于我的缘份已经到了，然而时间和事实证明了——再怎么急，还没来的，就是还没来。

那一天晚上，她问我：我们之间，可能吗？

我犹豫了片刻；若是以前的我，也许会毫不犹豫地脱口而出：为什么不呢？但现在，历尽了些许沧桑，开始体会了人生的苦与乐；我开始体会：勉强不幸福，幸福不勉强；我开始领悟，爱情不应只为爱而爱——爱情是一份承诺，一份责任。。。
所以最后，我心里默许着，他，能比我给予你更多的幸福。。。

在这个快熟面思维泛滥的社会，什么都要又快、又准，就连爱情，年轻人尤其，也是如此对待。正因为为爱而爱，所以昨天的朋友是今天的情人，今天的情人是明天的ex。。。‘我爱你’是很简单的三个字———但其中博大精深的含义，又有多少人能够真正理解、体会、实践？

真正的祝福更不应只局限表面的言语。真正的爱情是心里最真诚的祝福，实际上最实际的行动。爱一个人，不代表需要拥有她的全部，不需要常常陪伴与其左右。让一个更爱她的人细心呵护着她，在适当的时候放手，也许更是爱真正的体现。

感谢你曾经出现于我的生命中。我曾经，被你狠狠的伤害过。但我更了解，爱情是重要的人生一环，却并不是一切——只因为自己的人生，还需要对家庭、朋友、社会、国家交待。

也渐渐习惯了你不在身边的陪伴。虽然有时仍会在深沉的夜里，偶尔想起一些过去；但我更知道，我更需要展望明天。

愿你快乐，祝你幸福。

同时，我也不会忘了：
祝我快乐，愿我幸福。

只因为不懂得爱惜自己的，更没有资格去爱别人。先学会爱惜自己，才能够真正地喜欢、珍惜、守护着她。

朋友的定义

原来每个人的心里面，都有个位置，可以将朋友放进去。无论是对方的喜恶、立场和需要，甚至是坏习惯，统统都可以放得下。

你会和好的朋友分享你的一切。就算是生活上最细微的事情，只要你觉得有趣，哪怕只是小小的感动，你和对方都会很愿意一起分享，而且绝对不会嫌你烦。

面对朋友是不需要掩饰自己的。开心时可以和大家分享，在不开心时也可以坦白说出来。就算有再大的争执，只要大家明白之后，一样可以继续有说有笑，变回以前的老样子。

好的朋友会支持你的一切，也会释放出善意的激励推动彼此进步，而且不会计较得失，陪你走过风风雨雨，成为永远支持你的力量。

你可以在朋友面前大声笑，也可以在朋友面前尽情地哭。

拥有一个好朋友，你将会得到的，绝对是意想不到的快乐与温暖。

Being a kid

I remembered when I was a kid, everything is just so simple and easy, most of the time. I am those kind of 'pathetic' - finish all homework given by the teachers or I will feel like hell, go to no parties, no tuitions, etc etc...

There was a time when it was raining, and as you know due to gravity, water will flow from the rooftop to the ground. I was living in a wooden house that time, so there was no sophisticated water chanelling system - all rain water just gone down in a 'splash' - like that!

Then one day father uses the rain water to bath (of course with the brief on OK??? That's interesting. Then one day when it was raining heavily, my brother and I decided to do the same thing. Hahaha - it was quite fun, and I suppose we comnbined showering and playing in the water together...

Suddenly when I was facing the shower in the hostel I started to be lead back to these nostalgia again. Memory is such a random thing -  any drawers of memory can simply be opened at any time, seems like - I wish it will work well during exams then...

Back to the story, I had almost one week so called 'lonely' being abroad. Now I am at Stockholm, where the keyboard is 'fun' (well, it's interesting but I kind of dislike it as I don't get that used to it...). For example you can type these special characters straightaway - ö Ö ä Ä § ½ å Å - alolo I should promote the same thing when I was at Helsinki leh - the keyboard is slightly different, again...

Well travelling alone is not that bad - You go to places that you like at the time that you like, or when the right time comes - and then you get to see the things that you like (which hopefully is what you intend to see). And some points, it's either you are approached by a friendly stranger or you are approaching a stranger so you start to be engaged in some interesting conversation that may help you to understand where you are better - and save the hassle from flipping through those travel guide over and over again when may be it is not even there...

I have to get ready now anyway. Better stop now. Till then, adjö!

Mon père

Sometimes I wonder: To have an 'atypical' father compared to most other 'normal' family, I get used to it, of course, yet the idea is still kind of strange to me.

Well, at least he never did anything too wrong, at least he stays with us, at least he loves us, so much...

May be the way he raises us is what I feel... a bit strange...yet the paternity love, is, the same.