蓝天白云下: September 2010

Wednesday, 29 September 2010

飞机上。。。

刚才在飞机上，睡不着。。。

又失眠了？

哈哈。。。

此时突然想起家里的几个小瓜瓜。。。

新的旅程，新的希望，望上帝保佑！

所谓行行出状元，别想将来会是什么‘师’？

只要用心去学，去做，去生活，这样，就够了！

药剂师又怎样？

工程师又如何？

难道电脑软件设计师或教师就不是一份职业吗？

只要你们可以快快乐乐的成长，知道自己的责任，尽心尽力完成自己的本份 ---

我

会

会心一笑 :)

祝福你。。。

Jack

Tuesday, 28 September 2010

离别前夕

明天，就要走了。。。

还有不到二十四个小时。。。

突然想起，若有一天，我的弟弟/妹妹比我更早结婚。。。那。。。

我会是一个好伯伯/舅舅吗？

嗯。。。

喂呀！我在想什么呀！

嗨。。。

而若有一天，若干年后，在街上遇到一个庄XX/洪XX/黎XX 的小孩子时。。。

也许会突然会心地想起，这，天真无邪的小瓜瓜，会不会就是与我在大学同甘共苦的同学的孩子呢？

那我就是何叔叔啰。。。

天!

我，今晚，到底，在干吗？

终于，要回了。。。

为何好久不下雨，今日从黄昏却下个不停呢？

向晚意不适

驱车登古原

夕阳无限好

只是近黄昏

根地咬，我，会想念你的。。。

Friday, 24 September 2010

熟悉的爱，陌生的爱。。。

Back to UK, very soon…

Now I think I start to emo, I mean, a little bit emo…

When I’m surveying for some stuffs to be brought back to UK at the supermarkets/hypermarkets just now, suddenly there’s a hidden sadness boundering me…

It’ll be the last time, at least at this year, that I have a chance to buy stuff for my house…for my siblings…

I picked up two cans of sardines….and a can of backed beans…

Sure mom will kill me later…she always say: those things ahhh…got chemicals one…no good…Then she’ll start to scold me, bla bla bla…

And then I pick up another two packs of Mamee Instant Noodles…OMG…Mommy will not only kill me this time, she’ll skin me before that!!! Just like what Ms.Annie always wanna do to the poor JPA 2,3 students at UCSI!!!

Yet this is really, really the last time, dear mommy….at least for this year… :)

此时超级市场里隐隐约约想起了一手拿有这么熟悉，有这么陌生的音乐：

“最幸福的事，

做过你的天使。。。”

你知道吗？我不只想做过你们的天使，我想现在，以后，永远，都是，都是，你们的天使。。。

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新床买了，大家都开始睡了，但也许还是命中注定，我每每，最后，一定会在客厅的老沙发上睡着了。。。

这就是，所谓的，劳碌命吗？

也许吧。。。反正，凉也凉惯了。。。只希望自己的喉咙痛加咳嗽不会加剧就好了。。。

而今天早上，发了很罕有的噩梦，梦境是这么的真实，而我，要回了，又开始怕了。。。

下个星期，就要回了，由于时间上的非常不协调，这次回孤单回去，父母，则是不送了。。。

想起必须在机场过两个晚上，回到把死后还要赶时间，有些吃不消。。。

跟一个好朋友讲起时。。。她竟说：I love airport! You are so lucky…

Nyiao…(Wah, long time no use this word already….)…Sleep at airport, for two consecutive nights, will mean sleepless nights, are that’s absolutely NO FUN at all!

命中注定。。。

（我，淡笑）。。。

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今天，路过老街，一份会议，瞬间又冲进脑海里，久久不散。。。

记得还小的时候。。。嗯。。。还想起在台球场里度过的那份童年。。。今天，一切历历在目，又变得这么的清新。。。

在大马，台球场通常只能与复杂的社会等系化上大大的等号。。。

然而，至少在台球场里，还贮存着父亲那份爱啊。。。

是的，时光如流，我们都长大了，我变了，而他，也变了。。。

我越来越发觉，自己越来越不认识他。。。是的，是我的错吧。。。但，我很不想再离开后，还是得提心吊胆地过日子。。。

有任何苦，就我来受吧，她，也受够了，即使前世欠了他，也该连利息都换完了。。。

隐隐约约，有些事情，他们没有明说，但我，却觉得，自己越心里有数。。。

无可否认，他还是很爱我们。。。但。。。我有时，非常希望，它能尽更多责任。。。

我不介意需要现在就担当一些，我从不埋怨，我需要担当一些其实不该属于我的责任。。。但。。。

爱她，就要给她自由，勉强的爱，让人窒息。。。让双方都异常辛苦，何苦？！

越长大，我越发觉，我更懂得爱；但有时，却觉得，我越来越不懂得爱。。。

我可以很像郭静，就这么干脆的‘不想懂得’吗？

这首歌，就是梁静茹：

大马。。。

永远。。。

宁静的夏天。。。

知了也睡了。。。

安心的睡了。。。

在我心里面。。。

*** 宁静的夏天 ***

Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Holiday Ends Soon ......

After live on this Planet Earth for almost 1/5 of a century, I realize other than human, animals, plants, organisms…There’s something more, beyond that…and our understanding towards them are just so so so limited…Yet no matter what, it’s important to live respectfully with each other =)

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It’s time for another updates!

Today I receive a surprise present from one of my student, Fikah ~

Hahaha…it’s a set of colourful, lovely Kuih Raya!

Thanks Fikah! It’s not just a simple kuih raya, it sweeps my sadness away, too!

And of course, it’s quite tasty, especially when eaten with your siblings!

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Today our lesson starts very early, 9 a.m. , yeap, the earliest in my tuition history, as requested by my ‘lovely’ students, on this Malaysia Day!

Well, I only wake up at 8 a.m. , therefore still a little bit sleepy…yet recover quite soon as well, escaping breakfast, as I have to prepare he exercise materials first! Well, that’s because I don’t prepare it one night beforehand (I fall asleep, OK?! I’m very tired last night…)

Only after giving exercises to them, completing the notes, only then I start to have my breakfast quietly, at a tiny corner in the kitchen…(well, fine, I deserve it! No objection, at all!)

And officially I will say good bye to one of my student, which is the bright student from MRSM Kinarut, Sabah, today. Yeap, initially I do feel quite like nothing also, yet later I start to have a feeling of “hais, time flies so fast, it’s mid-September, and I’ll have a student left me now…and next week, another 4 will left as they finish their UPSR at next Wednesday…”

Jackie I: 别执着, 人生无常啊!

Jackie II: 是的…是的…

Don’t worry guys, I haven’t got Bipolar Disorder yet, I think…LOL~

Yet as I re-check his last Mathematics exercise from me, I realize there are a lot of careless mistakes! What the…… Hais, nothing to say, reminded over and over again, and I can only speak to his mommy later…Initially aunty asked me:

“Should I send him for this night too?”

“Erm…no need I think, as I have covered the Form 3 Science, as requested, too..”

“Lagipun, saya rasa dia tidak mau tu. Biarlah, besok pun dia mau pulang sudah kan? Biarlah malam ni dia sama family dia dulu…”

(Plus, I don’t think he wants…Never mind…Tomorrow he’ll back to school right? Let him spend this night with his family…)

“Bah, bah…” (Fine, fine…in Sabah typical dialect)

“Tau pula kau perangai anak aunty ni, sebenarnya memang awal-awal lagi dia cakap sama saya dia tidak mau pigi malam ni…”

(You quite know my son’s behaviour. Actually he has said to me earlier that he doesn’t want to attend the session tonight…)

Hey, I may spend only about 2 weeks with him, yet I can see that, although he’s an obedient son, he seems quiet, yet he doesn’t spend 100% concentration on what I said, sometimes…I have to admit, partially, is because, I’m a quite boring teacher, yet another undeniable reason, is due to his own nature…He’s not a quiet person actually, he’ll talk, chat with whoever he’s familiar with…(In short, don’t, don’t cheated by him!)

So my final responsibility will be to remind his mom to keep an eye on him, loh…remind him to be more careful when dealing with Maths, and to finish his Geography exercise, which actually has covered for the PMR Geography!

And the science, has been covered till some of the Form 3 syllabus as well, as requested…Thanks to my human physiology, I managed to explain to him the basic concept of blood circulation, respiration, and excretion, quite successfully! Hey hey ^^

Yet he’s still ‘blur blur’ sometimes…I said many times already: For human and / or mammal’s heart:

Right part – Deoxygenated blood

Left part – Oxygenated blood

Upper part – Atrium / Auricle

Lower part – Ventricle

Thanks to my students, now I learn something new, at least at this holiday…So at least it is not wholly wasted…one month really wasted…one month on vacation…and one month on partial work…sounds semi-productive, indeed! So salary also partial only, loh~

Due to a partial obligation I have less night-outs compared to last year, yet isn’t that a great thing, actually? Indeed I become moe appreciative of each gatheings with my friends, thanks to those that willing to find me at this holiday! To those that will be back soon to Kota Kinabalu, UM, Maktab, Singapore, etc etc…Thanks for a nice gathering at this year =)

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Today I’m taught by a one of student on how to produce the Mathematics Multiplication Table (Malay: Sifir ; Chinese-Mandarin: 乘法表).

For 9:

54
63

The method is to write 0 to 9 in down in the ‘left’ column, followed by filling 9 to 0 down accordingly in the ‘right’ column…well, the trick works, indeed!

For 8:

Write 0 to 8 down in the ‘left’ column, yet the ‘4’ has to be repeated twice.

Then write 0,2,4,6,8 up in the right column, stop, and then re-write 0,2,4,6,8 up again.

The trick works, again!

Never think of that, really! Since we’re asked (or forced) to memorize the multiplication table since primary school years…

Now let me try for 7 ya… :

OK, I think I have discovered the pattern here:

At the left column, write 0 to 6 downwards, with 2 and 4, repeated twice.

At the right column, write 3,6,9 upwards, stop, followed by 2,5,8 upwards, stop, followed by 1,4,7 upwards!

3,6,9 and 2,5,8 plus 1,4,7 orders can be discovered from your calculator or your handphone (will traditional numbered keypad, of course! QWERTY keypad won’t work, my dear!)

Interesting discovery, indeed!

If I choose to become a High School Mathematics Teacher and not pharmacist, perhaps I’ll discover more fun behind the world of Mathematics! Yet what’s past, has past…I have chosen to come to Bath and not Portsmouth…although both are situated at western/southern part of England, United Kingdom (of Great Britain and Northern Ireland)…

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Recently while watching CBML (a comedy Hong Kong Movie with setting: Tang Dynasty, ancient

China

), I discovered that my sister is noting down something as she’s watching the movie…that’s interesting…writing while watching a movie,… A synopsis? A commentary? A what???

Later when I discover, OK, it’s a list of...new words…She has recorded all the words that she doesn’t know or recognize, so that she can check the dictionary later!

Indeed when I realize this, I’m speechless, really…

Touched…

Why my SPM brother just can’t be half of that?

Therefore looking at the old Chinese Dictionary that has been bought by my mom when I am 12 years old…It’s just too old already, with missing pages…and well…I have to admit that my siblings are not as careful as me in watching books…Thanks for mommy, I’m glad to own that dictionary as it really helps me, as I have participated in 华语笔试比赛 at that year…Dictionary is essential to widen my vocabulary =) Mom’s RM33 at that time certainly worth it =)

So later when I have escaped to Kota Kinabalu, one of the missions is o get a new dictionary for my sister…I buy a new one, with thicker book cover, so that it’ll last longer, I hope…

This time after almost 10 years, inflation cause the new edition of the dictionary to be priced at RM55, ok, and even with discounts, it’s still RM50…Yet I think, and I believe, it’ll worth again, this time, although dear mommy may complaint at me, “why got new books, again???!!!”

Whatever-lah…She’ll forgive me de ~

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Falls soon.

Will Winter Seasonal Disorder come, again?

It’s always summer at Malaysia, yet it’s not the same at UK…

Well, as I hear the sound of falling leaves…

Nope…Nope…Nope…

*** Till then =) ***