5 Yets

A call to my bro today...

To remind some 'souvenir' from KL...

And strangely, same person that shares the same genetic origin as me...

Can sound so cold...

I wanna be one as well...

Yet perhaps, like being Luna-pi, I will never ever be...

***

I wanna to be my real myself...

Back to the origin, may be just a little bit changes...

Yet as I am a Malaysian,

Yet as I am a Malaysian PSD scholar,

Yet as I am a Bath University MPharm Student,

Yet as I am an obedient son, 

Yet as I am still an elder brother...

So I know, I just can't be the ultimate one.

As life is not always, well, happy ending, in the movie.

I wish to go back to that Yuletide Christmas... =)

***

And for the first and may be the last time.

A short talk with my housemates...

During today's dinner...

And in the end I laughed and jumped happily...

I smiled, and knew that...

I would definitely miss all these precious moment...

At the same time, Kenny is laughing so soundly with his high-amplitude laughter, beside my room...

That's 幸福 =）

只因为，幸福，很简单。 =）

After PA20024, prior PA20241

Finally, the 4th exam, left with only one more to go!

So the first thing that I do - is to find something as my lunch - and then I need to destress - so the best choice - 4 ice-creams! Oops...

Then is on the way to the bookshop and everything, and pass through Bass Abbey, with few kids chasing each other in front of it - what a beautiful and peaceful scenery. Life, perhaps, is no more than this...

I really hate to become a person with such a sentimental heart. Easily touched, easily hurt...indeed...

If I am given a choice to become an innocent and whatsoever-no-no like at Secondary school years, or a harder person like me now, I will choose the former, think so...

Anyway, summer in Bath is still charming, as usual, too bad I never take time to really enjoy it. We always said, ohh, I missed the one this year. Never mind, I still got another year to go...and in the end...when you are in the final year, only then you realise how old you are, and how foolish as well...

And indeed, the same happen to some of my friend. For example, always complaining about bad digestion system, yet the truth is he/she just never learn to eat slowly. Some always explain he/she can't finish the pass years. The truth is, I myself has sacrificed the time to do the pass years without doing proper revision, so it doesn't mean I know everything when doing the pass years...

And I take a huge breath to just do some vacuum today. Yet not mopping. Indeed sometimes I am just too disappointed with the scenery in my house. Clean everything partially. So in the end some stuff is always there, and no body seems care to take some effort to rectify the situation. I can't deny that I have been calculative enough before: There's no reason for me to give my 100% if you just wanna give 50%. Yet I realised that someone must take the first step. So yeah...Just like what I will do to my real house in my hometown, I decided to take the same steps now...

Yet I sighed at the same time. I can do these this year, yet who will at next year? Next year my loyalty should shift to my new house, regardless of whether the house will give me a sense of belongings or not. Yeah, SENSE OF BELONGING. What an important word. I think initially I just finding too many reasons to leave my current house. Yet after so much has happened, without realising, maybe it's time to go, 悄悄的，潇洒的，豁达的...

3 girls, that may love to clean. Truthfully speaking the house is really compact so size is not an excuse. Maybe everyone is just too busy. I mean, he is student, she is student, and student is always busy. Apart from assignments and lectures and cooking, there is facebook, internet, shopping, hanging out with friends, daydreaming, and sleeping is important for memory retrieval. Yeah, so in the end student just has no time for anything else...

Indeed me too, sometimes trapped in such a mindset. I realised, I am the one that arrived the latest at this house. 1 October. And then the leaving moment. 1 August. Maybe earlier than that, if I need to. So yeah, just 10 months, not even a year...Yet I still remembered that there is so many plates to moved into the store room, or else there will be just plates in the kitchen. Kenny has done the 1st proper kitchen washing demonstration, if I am not mistaken...Ang as the pioneer has bought almost everything for the house when we initially 'open' the house...Indeed, everyone has own contribution =) Yet if everyone is willing to put in more effort to make this house a better house. I will be happier.

You will blame me, then. Talk to them...talk to them! Yet in the end, I feel that, if he/she is willing to perform well, he/she will do it. If no, even if I remind him/her purposely, the result maybe still...so so...so yeah, I do hope that everyone will be giving their best. As I feel that it is just worth to do it, for such a lovely house. I know my house next year may not be even so nice. Perhaps that's the fact that make me think so much? May be?

Anyway, June is coming. I know I still be buried by sadness sometimes. Some label it as hatred. Indeed, partially, yes. Yet the point is after having been 'innocent' and curious, as usual, in the end my sincerity is questioned and sometimes I still have to be reminded by some people of the old history, when I wish that no one is really turning back, and even if yes, do it silently, like what I do sometimes...As in the end, I realise that pouring salt on a partially-recovered wound, perhaps is the cruelest part...

Sorry to grumble too much. Guess once the exam is finish. At least I just need a little break now. And as usual, thanks for everything. All the sincere prayer, wishes, and blessings, and some don't ignore my last minute message, when indeed they can. To whoever, thanks really, I appreciate it =)

泼水节

一个人一失去利用价值，将被唾弃、抛弃。

就像被泼出去的水一样，连看也不用了。

英国的夏天，很美。

书得读，但学习的当儿，始终是获取知识的过程。也许有人不在意，但原来这些知识就是这么得有趣！感谢老天给我们念书的机会呀！比起读那些抽象的经济学或政治学，我觉得我们的药剂学很有实用价值。=）

***

与君一席话，胜读十年书，果然没错。

短短的对话让我明了更多人生百态，少爷脾气，公主病。。。

果然有好多事情，不是由年龄决定的。我活了几乎二十一年，不代表我的人生体验也是如此。

也许以前太懵懂、太天真，始终不愿相信世界太过残忍。
也许现在仍然太执着，不愿相信社会的暗潮汹涌。

感谢老天让我看着这些社会不平等的待遇。
知道我身当其中，虽有时当局者请，但现在看回来，又有些旁观者清。

我仍然学习着，如何去面对，如何去爱，如何去恨。
以前，我以为，人一定要互相帮忙，互相鼓励，世界是十二分的美好。
现在，也许开始看开了，开始知道人会耍手段，看出人性的真伪。
有些人，当初对你很热情，但后来，才发觉，原来背后，隐藏着恐怖的阴谋，实为口蜜腹剑。
有些人，看似单纯，但原来hoh，读心术比八爪鱼预算世界杯还要精。。。

我开始想追求的，也许，是该放弃的。
我开始都相信的，也许，是该放弃的。
感谢来自曼彻斯特、加的夫、吉隆坡、槟城、柔佛、亚庇（也许更多）默默的关心，与祝福。

我知道我仍然怀着那份信念，该死。
我知道我仍然爱着，活该。

最后我也不再明白为何自己有时就不能再享受也朋友们在一起的时光。
我喜欢看他们发自内心的笑容，为这份英国明媚的夏天，整天灿烂的色彩。
我喜欢看他们为了某某朋友的生日鞠躬尽瘁。

但最后，自己虽也尽力，但发觉，准备生日后，往往心里却是空虚的。

马拉松三天连续考试后，和他们在一起，考完了，却再也没有像他们讨论每一题的兴致。
我知道，这不是Old Jackie。
最后看着在那Student Union 学术言论的空间的朋友们，我离开了。

我有点不舍，但我并没有哭泣，同时，我寻回属于自己的呼吸。

英国的夏天，很美。

图书馆旁的枯树，仍然是没有叶子的模样。
就像我一样，仍有着一份执着。

***

成，生日快乐！
十五岁了，时间，过得很快。
从来，在家里庆祝生日的我们，就是懵懂，就是没有所谓的生日愿望。

我只怕我忘记，但若老天问我今年的生日愿望。
其中一个，会是：请让我的弟妹们早日感受到人世间的现实与残忍。但更请您保佑他们，顺顺利利闯过每一关，让他们成熟、让他们成长、让他们幸福。

只因为，我仍放不下无常。
我一直以为，我很负责任，我必须照顾你们。因为，我是你们的哥哥。
但我现在明了：以后你们将有各自的生活，你们会追求自己的理想，有自己的生活。
而我就算多好，也不能一生一世看着你们。
我祝你们，一切安好。若有什么问题，累了，倦了，那就回吧。。。 =）
也祝你们找到属于自己的另一半，让我能成为伯伯、或舅舅。

***

柔，应该在考试当中了吧？

若看到这边，心领了。

若没有，反正你也知道：咱们，加油吧！

***

晓，很感谢你那天的MSG，忘了回，趁这当儿，再向你说声：谢谢！

是的，是很不公平，但我也要像你一样：不习惯让自己不快乐=）

***

八月二十四日，正式回到大马国土。
其实说了也没用，由于地理的特别关系，爸妈肯定不会来接机。
朋友更甮说，像妈每次说的，你的脸洗白一点！

最后还能要麻烦Kenny，先在他的家里住一晚。

其实我并不是很想，毕竟刚刚从英国回来，我想，若能让他和家人“单独”团聚，更好。
我的意思：我这个“外人”，不应成为KacauDaun。
想退却，但Kenny一知道我要在机场过夜，他也不忍哪。

过了这么多年，仍会羡慕那些有父母送机和接机的朋友。
离开的当儿，看着那熟悉的眼神。。。
但也许上帝就是要善待我这这种多愁善感的动物。
也许若真有人来送机，我会抽泣，我会流泪？
也许因此，我更珍惜能和家人在一起的每一段时光？

Anyway， it doesn't matter.

而我更不明白为什么，突然有一种冲动，很想打电话给好久以前曾经招待我的朋友的父母。
像我的父母一样，他们老了，也许，更老。
我不明白为何，do that implies something? Anything?

一声：Kam sia!

最后，原来，感情还在

今天是连续三天马拉松考试的第二天了。
有些喘不过气来，但其实，我们还是好好的活下去。
明天还有一份考试，但我不知为何，就是很想讲出好久以来要说的几句话。

今天早上，我们做所为的蓝巴士上学（考试），读笔记读到太专心了，后来才发觉，有一个阿婆站在我的面前。

顿时有些矛盾，应该它也站了蛮久了。我好像马上站起来让位给她，但又有点不好意思。
最后还是问了一声：Hi there, do you wanna have a seat?
没想到她竟然是轻轻的一声：oh never mind, you are having your exam, I'm fine...

有些失意，其实若我态度强硬些，她也会坐下。但我最后还是继续坐下去。

记忆的框框，又飞了。看着那满是皱纹的手，脸上岁月的痕迹，这是一位坚强独立的专业女士。

突然想起我妈，她以后，也会很老很老。当时，不知它能否也向我眼前这位这么硬朗？

我的容易焦虑，我的责任感，多多少少也是母亲的基因与熏陶。但想起以后，至少兄弟（姐）妹这么多，她不会孤单。

***

最近是考试时期，家里也越来越乱了。
当然未婚兼单身的男士，物资应该都是这样的。没话说。

但有时我仍很沮丧。也许我就是完美主义者，也许我就是要求比常人高吧？
向当时给我清理得有点象样的厨房，现在有时越来越不像样。。。有时看了，心里很酸。
坦白说，有时自己会想，反正明年我也不在这儿，随它吧。。。但原来，我做不到，看着凌乱的屋子，不知为何，有时很气。

我自认之际有时也会把厨房弄乱，碗碟有时丢着两天后才洗。

但我不明白，为什么有些碟、杯，竟然能放上两三个星期也置之不理？想骂又骂不出口，怕伤感情，但自己看了，又会不舒服。。。

最后惟有等到自己之日的那份星期，才真正把厨房又清多一次。但，同样的圆圈，包会来回旋转。

我不否认这么多人，责任感高的还是有的。

同样的，在这儿说话，不是像抹黒是谁，不是像说谁的坏话，不是因为自己不能在他们面前诚实。但我觉得，也许说了，影响也不大。只因为这是我的想法，我说的，别人未必觉得有必要。

想回来，若这时你自己的屋子，会忍心让它被置得不像样吗？

其实同样的现象，在我的家里也有发生。只有我妈和我会理会。。。有时回家看到乱七八糟的屋子，还真气人的。但就算我大发雷霆，也不能怎样，尤其我那些政治少年方刚时代的弟妹们。

也许我应该感恩，明年的室友，应该不再会这么整齐了。也许更糟。

但生活有时并没有第二份选择。只因为，现实有时就是太残酷。

有时默默地，做了。但回头，却因为小小的失误，就给人家一种“不负责任”的感觉。老实说，真的没有比这个更沮丧了。你明明尽心尽力，牺牲时间精力花心思的工作，就这样被他（们）糟蹋、质疑，你有口难言。

也许时间会证明一切。但对于一些自以为是的人，又能怎样呢？

***

转眼间就只剩下两个月半了。实在太快。住了不到一年的屋子，就像当初我离开Wolfson一样，有些不舍，有些伤感，有些惆怅，但却没办法不离开。

以后的日子仍是未知数，好多人说，会没事的，会好的，等等等等，但生活是我的。然后有人就会说，是你自己自找的，活该！我承认，但同时，难道我又很想面对今日这样的结局？难道我从来就没有困惑过、悲伤过、气过、后悔过、知错过？

***
整理我natural product的笔记，才发觉，竟有半盒A4盒子那么高！而今日的考试，有些人的combination，就好像可以完全不用读第二半年的笔记，其实真的没错。但我感激所学的一切，虽有时很辛苦，但尤其在考试时期，往往茅塞顿开，才发觉一切真的很make sense! 借此机会感谢ISB平时的一句话：I do enjoy your course!

***

而这次考试时期，至少仍会有那几分熟悉的笑容陪伴着，我无比感激。但明年此时此刻，不知我又是在哭，还是在笑？

最后，原来，感情还在。

Before Exam - It's Me Again

I can't believe it, to fall into such a trap, really before the exam time.

I am the one that will sit for exam too.

Why everything has to come last minutes?

In the end everything is just my fault again?

I wish I have done nothing then.

What really upset me:

My sincerity, my intention, up to few weeks before, actually, is questionable.

Do anyone know the long term emotional struggle that I have to face because of that?

I tell no one, and in the end, after trying almost the best...I am being thrown into such huge dilemma.

Wish it ends, very soon.

As I know that, I myself have to be responsible for whatever that I will face soon, no matter how painful the process that I have undergone.

Yet again, I have reminded so many time, find others, why me, again?

Again, this is NOT fair and square to me...


* P/S: Dear CY, thanks for the long call. It not just a help to your sister but really also myself. Indeed I am more than grateful for your iPhone now, LOL~

Journey for the next 4 months

It's a quiet moment at library.
Alone, yet not really alone.
Especially when you can make some head and tail out of your seems nonsense Drug Metabolism lecture.

I thought I will go back with an empty hand again.
I lost some time, yet what I get back is even more, perhaps.

Be grateful for whatever that you can have now.
As things may not be the same, in the future.
To love, and to be loved.

Thanks for the lovely maggi dinner and nice pork pie!
Simple yet meaningful.
Sometimes, more people doesn't mean, more fun.
This is true, especially for me.

To 194, a belated happy birthday! A new winter cloth, a new swimming suit, a new goggle =)

To others, exams soon! Exam is fun! Enjoy!

I mean it really, as in the end everything make sense only at exam period.

Hmm, bad boy, bad student, yet...yeah, that's what university student really is isn't it?

Finish exam, quite soon in 1 week time.
Indeed time is so short now.
Yet there will be even more after the exam:




Berlin, Germany





Munich, Germany





Germany - Neuschwanstein Castle - in The Fairytale



London, United Kingdom



South Devon, United Kingdom



Bristol, United Kingdom

And on the very nice courtesy of Malaysia Airlines - Syarikat Penerbangan Rasmi Paling Terkemuka di Malaysia, I will be flying back to my homeland Malaysia hometown Keningau. For the very 1st time I am so proud to be a MAS customer - chepaest international ticket ever...




Malaysia Airlines - MAS, purposely make it so big so that you can see it very clearly  =)



Kuala Lumpur - Federal Territory - My transit point for home journey

Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

Keningau, Sabah
(and please don't ask me why I should put a shop as the picture here.
That's the biggest that I can get for this moment really)

And just reverse the journey sequence for the return journey -luo...

(All pictures and images are strictly for illustration purposes only. Nothing is for commercial purposes, OK??? And therefore I, am, not responsible for any damage, financially or whatsoeva, due to the use of any content in this post. Harap maklum.)

English Melodies + Motivational Melodies

从重寻护照部到从重寻生日的意义

本来以为护照不见了。。。结果，在这非常时期，被逼出动！
结果在同时，最后翻出的，不但是护照，还有一份珍贵的回忆。
是的，适逢某某老友的生日，我看着属于自己的生日卡。微笑一下，pasta! LOL~

"希望你好好生活着，我们都会陪伴在你身边。。。“
”希望你珍惜当下。。。”

这一切太久的祝福，突然，又重新摆在眼前。

是的，还记得本身的生日当晚，由于隔天是重要的星期五，stanozolol essay summit day (For Groups A-F), 我的邻居也不便陪我，因为，大家要赶啊！

我看得出我的“小弟”又留下的意思，但两位“哥哥”，他也不便再作什么。。。

生日的晚上，有点冷清，有点孤单，看着面子书不断的祝福，也不再觉得怎样。

是的，记得一位朋友说过，其实好多面子书的祝福也因为面子书的提醒而来，不然，有时可怜的小猫两三只。。。
但我仍感激愿意牺牲那半分钟来祝我的人，谢谢你。

重新翻回的记忆收藏里，除了来自曼彻斯特的敬荟，韵怡提前（或提后）的莎士比亚祝福。还有来自爱尔兰的，巴斯的。。。

有些信息，写出的意思，让人有种“赶时间”的感觉。就是不想将很多，草草收场。
所以，“长”不一定语重心长，重要的，是意思，是真心。
有些信息，则是句句细心，还有诗歌朗诵，足以体会出当中的意义。

其实庆祝生日的“传统”，在我来到UCSI之前，一直都是和家人简单庆祝，但我很满足=）

而现在，庆祝每一位在巴斯的朋友的生日，一时我们的adat/culture,庆祝时间与礼物的不同之外，意义，几乎一样。

还记得第一次自己organise的生日，就是新仪的生日。第一次的自制生日卡、第一次的红鸡蛋、第一次打给大家的忙碌。虽然要考两张两张春天的Paper，但精神上，很满足=）

而最近的生日，更让我看出准备生日的不易。我只想准备一份很简单的生日卡，但不熟悉的对象，而且这一次没有一位朋友的朋友愿意出手，只好本人个个出动。。。

准备的过程中，虽有时感叹自己的时间也在流逝，但更不想让自己的朋友过一段没有没有的生日。准备的同时，感触良多，更让自己看出人性真善美，现实，甚至丑陋的一面。

“没有时间”是现代人最琅琅上口的口头禅。是的，但回想，你有时间吃饭上厕所讲闲话，或上面子书，为何不肯牺牲那五分钟，为别人的生活，做出一些改变？你的五分钟，对你来说，微不足道，但对当事人来说，也许是最宝贵，最让他/她感激地感动时刻。

到现在仍不会烘蛋糕，只会做最简单的双红鸡蛋，只想为每一位朋友，送上一些祝福。

但最后连最后自己都会开始怀疑自己，这么做，真的是祝福，还是只是“do for teh sake of doing it"? 但回想，算好时间，而且有时朋友的生日，也特地为了半夜的庆祝而提早从图书馆回家，所以，是真心？是假意？真的，有时不是故意不懂，而是，想太多吧？最后反而迷失。。。

坦白来说，又说真的尽力而为，但不知为何到了最后，心情会有些失落。所以有时，生日的来临，给我忙碌的片刻，行动上，思想上，都是如此。。。

其实也许，做人不应太复杂。把很多事简单化，对谁都会好一点吧？

从新寻回以前的自己，发觉，对故乡的朋友，除了几位真的能算同生共死的，再也没有多少的眷恋。

而在这儿，不知为何感情上的改变，太过注重，对自己，对别人，都是负担。

有时打份简单的电话，只想询问对方最近过的好不好？温习到怎样？等等等等，我很抱歉，我不会说什么最新的明星动态，最新的足球消息，最爆的新闻。。。但有时，别人给我敷衍的感觉，就好像：”没有事是吗？那请别说太多，我很忙。。。“

面对多次了，连自己也不再被鼓舞，想打的电话，也越来越少了。而最后自己收到的feedback就是：你每次找我们都是有事才找。。。你的人，也不简单哪。。。我呆了，打又不是，不打又不是。。。

其实我要求很简单，我只想能和几位朋友在一起。但也许对我来说，最简单，也是奢望？

是的，能和三五知己，偶尔吃顿日本餐，偶尔打羽毛球，偶尔大家团聚一下，偶尔打份长途电话慰问，但不知为何，有时连这些最简单的，对我来说。。。似乎很遥远。。。

只因现在的思想，仍举棋不定。
有时，很感激。
有时，很气馁。
有时，很平淡。
有时，很澎湃。

但：
仍想起秋仪那笑声和houleboh的口头禅=）
仍想起韵怡那天真的笑容。

看着大学里那美丽的湖，夕阳西下，隐隐想到”The Lotus Eater"。我，也好像，好好的，躺在湖边，望着夕阳。。。

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寻回以前的记忆，愿意为我庆祝生日的，您们的来临，我感激不尽。

有点像朋友说的，我不知最后毕业的你们会不会想念我，但我一定会想念你们。

怎样都好，在四年的巴斯，很短。但我知道，我在这边，过了四年，过的每一天，有你们的呼吸，有你们的笑声，有你们课业上的协助，有和你们打羽毛球的倩影与汗水。。。

珍惜现在，活在当下。只因为，现在只在现在存在。

巴斯，曼彻斯特，伦敦，巴斯，爱丁堡，爱尔兰，马来西亚的朋友，感谢你们曾经、现在与将来的陪伴。

我会尽力好好活着=)

Happy Birthday =)

Another birthday, another success =)

To all, thanks for making this one another successful one.

Thanks to Sin Yee and 194 for the shopping.

Thanks to Kenny for the Guys card and Toffee cake.

Thanks to 66 girls for the awesome whatever butter cake!

Thanks to Yik Fei for video-ing.

And thanks also to Maybrick lady for her special appearance =)

And for those that have willing to respond, or even show willingness to initiate some help when I am collecting all the birthday messages...Thanks also.

Now I know there is 24 Dermarian, cool name =)

Another happy birthday wishes from me. =)

Finally 21, at this 21st century =)

Of course this is not the cake that we have. Anyway, happy 21st is applicable here =)

Another one to go, soon =)

I know it's hard works, guys, so thanks for all the time, money and effort.

Sincere,
JH

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风

就像风，她，那天，走了。

她的离去，默默地，一声不响。

自从我出生以来，对她的印象并不深刻，很不知道，这一切，是谁的错。

但她的离去，却给我打击。

他们的“保护”，对我而言，是伤害，是否定，是拒绝。

想起那刚刚过完的圣诞节，就像英国的冬天一样，冷静、冷酷。

不知为何考试时期却让我发挥更大的想象空间，想出许多不可思议的。

默默地，觉得平时不认识我的人；一时间，变得很“亲切”。

原来，知道了，只会更加伤害，只因为看到那最自私的一面。

感叹：只想寻找三五知己，但原来，有很多希望，真的是奢望。

默默地，觉得终有一天会遭人遗忘。。。

The Best Day - when you are with your mama

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
 But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today




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