Started as the pharmacist

Starting job as a pharmacist - just finished my second week.

In between Christmas and New Year now.

That day started to 'lapor diri' - and from there I realised people are really nice here - as what I have expected. Even the chief is quite 'down to earth' - she is the one that brought me to wander around the pharmacy department - so that I started to get to know everyone. If God will allow me to become a 'senior' or chief in some way one day - then I hope that I will become such a good chief, too. To be honest - how high a person's nose can be, anyway?

And it seems like the stuff that  I am enjoying most now - is to prepare DD (dangerous drugs - and maybe, psychotropic substances)? I may be too early in making this conclusion. We should see...

On the 26th December, I was rushing in in-patient pharmacy, making syrups and doing filling (a.k.a. dispensing). And then I sighed for a bit, I should be doing crazy shopping now if I am still in UK - Boxing Day! Anyway actually it does not really matter - to be able to work and learning to carrying responsibility and contributing back to society - is much more better than running around like a crazy man to chase for latest fashion, or actually, out-dated fashion (purely personal opinion).

That day I was talking to the 'one-and-a-half-month senior-er PRP'. I used to thought that Malaysian healthcare system is some what excellent and affordable - everything started just RM1 or RM30 - yet actually, if it comes to complicated procedures - then you still have to pay - in full, or else, well...

And to my GF, please be alright. Update me about your health progress. I know it will be devastating sometimes. KS will be with you. Your family will be with you. I will be with you, too.

Just some scribble lah while I am rushing for my counselling assessment and assignment...

Till then,
J x

知己 祝福

深思下，才发现，就因为我们是好友、是知己，她才会把来自我的祝福，看得特别重要。。。

让我先来简述一下，这好几年以来，对生日祝福的心得。

大学一、二年级时，我，也许向往着别人对我的注意，因此在面子书上的每个生日祝福，都能让我觉得雀跃。。。我甚至还将每一个都拷贝起来，丢去了哪儿？嗯。。。忘了。。。但，一定还在。而我也通过面子书最忠诚的提醒，通常都不会忘了向我的面子书朋友们送上生日祝福。

渐渐的，人逐渐长大了，逐渐走出了刚刚进入大学是笼罩着我的阴霾。渐渐的，我发觉，靠着面子书的提醒而去祝福人家，是一种诚意？还是一种虚假？也许你会对我说，至少他/她愿意花费人生中“宝贵”的那几秒，或那几分钟，向他的朋友，献上祝福啊！我当初也是这么想——但后来，渐渐的，我连在面子书上祝福人家——也变得好“懒得”了。。。但是，通过电话或卡片所给予我的生日祝福，则仍然深深地感动了我。。。

11月16日，我忘了她的生日吗？没有，但看着在面子书上那每一张珍贵的与家庭、男朋友之合照，我觉得，这种实在的快乐——最重要。

今年，我终于能够在自家庆祝生日。但是，是否有“如愿以偿”、“兴高采烈”呢？没有。

“喂虾米（福建话）”？

因为仍然属于父亲的头百天忌日，再加上忙着筹备弟弟的毕业事宜，还有代课老师的事宜，由想起隔着南中国海的弟弟妹妹们也忙着温习、准备考试，我实在没有“心情”去“享受”生日。最后，连面子书上的生日祝福，也只是很含糊的看了一下。不是因为不够感恩，而是因为，当生活中有更急切的事宜时，我们的母难日，明白别人的心意，就好了。及时送上的祝福，我感谢；那些没有送上的，忘了也好，生活所需也罢，只要大家见面时，仍然是如初的亲切，让我们活在当下是，可以觉得爱与被爱——生活中还有什么，将会比这更可贵？

也许对一些个人来说，生日时的祝福是珍贵的。。。而我，即使没有100巴仙的同感，也绝对不可以一厢情愿的认为，别人可以认同我的看法和观点。。。

但更重要的，是我们曾经在生活中最需要的时刻，彼此互相扶持。即使现在因为时差、地理、加上其他种种因素，我们不再相死党似地联络——曾经在生活的轮胎，情绪最低点时，那句句包含着关心的文字，曾经实实在在地陪伴着彼此——我觉得，这些，才是最重要的。

想起我们每次对考试和未来的焦急与不安，我仍不忘彼此借给对方的“神笔”、“desserts”、运气等等。虽听起来很幼稚、虚假，但因而所诞生的信心，却是真、善、美的。

“海内存知己，天涯若比邻”。人的一生中，要找到朋友，并不难；然而若要找到知己，确实不容易。因此，愿咱们能在照着你，也照着我的月儿下，重修旧好。

Dia Ayahku

Kebetulan aku menonton sebuah drama Melayu hari ini.

Salah seorang watak wanitanya berkata, "Ibu bapa bukannya nakkan sangat wang kita. Yang mereka lebih pentingkan ialah perhatian dan kasih sayang kita."

Tergamam aku seketika.

Bertanya diriku pada diri sendiri, "Adakah aku telah mencurahkan perhatian dan kasih sayang yang mencukupi kepada bapa, kepada mama?"

Aku tak berani mengangguk...Aku tak berani menggeleng...

Inilah, lumrah hidup manusia.

Yuk Yin Annual Dinner 2013

Yuk Yin Annual Dinner 2013 - on 4th November 2013

So happy and glad that I am invited to be part of the team - it's an awesome night!

The theme was 'black' - and luckily I did not come in my UK Pharmacy Ball attire - with my suit and bow tie, LOL...Clothes can be casual or semi-casual...

I also challenged the Karaoke which turned out not-so-great when I know that I was nervous...yet it was also a good try, I thought - (as) this morning, my ex-Maths teacher @ my current discipline teacher said that at least, he never want to perform in front of Yuk Yin audience at least, until now...

One of the teacher turned out to be the grand winner of the night by winning the karaoke competition as well as the queen competition...extra income! Rezeki bah :)

And after the night, I think since 2145? Or 2245? - The hotel room was bombarded with our 'crazy' laughter and sing-as-loudly-you-can 'competition'...plus the 'generous' supply of alcohol - so called 'responsible drinking' :)

Thinking back: Perhaps the pay is not the best in the end. However honestly, I treasure my time in this primary school, just like when I was walking with Juliet's and Matt's pharmacy teams in UK - work is happier when there is someone that is/are willing to lend you a helping hand, and when there is some spare time for you to 'gossip' about your colleague and/or boss too...woops...I also learn more about working in the government setting, the difficulties faced by primary school teachers currently (and sometimes, in the future, too) - and as usual in the end, how everyone's tiny contribution makes up the enormous success of the whole organisation :)

Last but not least - I think I should let the pictures do most of the talkings :)

Mrs. Chan and I (1)

Mrs. Chan and I (2)

10 male teaching staffs in SJK (C) Yuk Yin

代课老师之感言

成为代课老师几乎一个礼拜了。。。

昨天是母校第四十二节的运动会。回到那熟悉又陌生的体育馆，从学生成为（代课）老师，观点就是不一样！

教育界一直以来有阴盛阳衰的现象。本校也不例外。。。我和其他五位三年级的班主任坐在一起，形成一个属于自我的‘island'！五女一男。。。嗯。。。我的对面是我中学时的学长，隔壁是我小学时的代课老师，再远一点，则还是我小学时的老师！还有弟弟小学时的级任。。。

难得的是，成为代课老师并没有像我想象中的太过恐怖，很多老师都愿意尽力指点我。。。尤其是谭老师、陈老师、张老师和郑老师，arigato gozaimasu des ka!

想当初自己被叫去代替“生产”的何老师，还真是有点战战兢兢的！但原来，成为老师，并不太难（当然，也不太容易）。。。

小学老师果然必须是万能的！“所谓”——老师不是万能的，没有老师却万万不能！（LOL）老师出了老师，还是助教、书记、评判、警察、法官、“啊呀”父母等等。。。

何老师是三紫斑的班主任，也是生活技能之ketua panitia 或科任组长，任重道远！有时必须带何老师留下自己的署名时，还真是有点受宠若惊、心惊胆跳的！

还有还有——哪个办公室里没有内在政治啊？总之做回自己，虚心请教，习惯就好！

接下来就是一堆年终的谢师宴啦！But 别高兴太早，because before that, 我还有学校课本贷书、阅读计划、环保活动、年终考试成绩要“稍微”处理“一下”—— 认认真真地 oh my god 是也。。。

何老师，ganbateh des ka！

成。毕业典礼前后记

今天早上

再梦到父亲了

他笑着、走着

我，紧紧地抱着他

***

今天是，Seng 的毕业典礼

而明天，又要从中学再次回到小学啰！

廿四岁之生日愿望

好久好久的离别

终于，我再回到了写字的舞台

回到大马几乎三个月了

一切，并不陌生

就好像之前所说的

我当初以为，在这里继续我的药剂生涯，不会太好。。。

但出乎我的想象，大马的药剂system，其实，也蛮健全的

医务人员，也并没有像我想象中的‘难顶’

人间，处处有温情 :)

***

父亲，去了几乎三个月了。。。

我不知其他人的感觉

偶而偶而，我会想起他

这是否是一种思念呢？

这个经验让我体会到了

子欲养而亲不在——那种实实在在的心情

我们常觉得

要孝顺父母，明天也不迟。。。

明日复明日，明日何其多！

其实，生命，很无常

生命，就在转眼的那一瞬间

消失了——

还记得那一天早上

父亲，很平静地躺着

然而我再一抬头

‘eh, tiada sudah?'

是为了减轻我的罪恶感？

还是，真的就是时候了？

生老病死，因果相报，轮流转

每个人都得面对

亲人的离别，一定会携带一定程度的悲哀

但——拿得起，放得下，减少执著

将会是，对自己，对逝去的亲人，最好的祝福

在这短短的几个月里

一番又一番的人生百态

让我对人生有了另外一种层次的认识

而当上了小学代课老师好几天

看着我的教室里，那些还算天真无邪的学生们

可以不分种族，不分彼此，融洽的相处

感叹着：是什么时候，教育，也必须被政治的色彩染上？

再看着他们：谁说现在的小学生，已忘了何谓“尊师重道”？

基本的三部曲，至少他们还不忘朗诵予我

只要要求见低一些——

其实，每个孩童，都可以享有一份纯真、快乐的童年

***

明天，是五弟的毕业典礼

母亲有事

因此，我决定“代表家长”出席

若是之前

也许这对我来说，将是可有可无的

但细细回想

三弟的毕业典礼，由父母双双出席

也许五弟不会觉得怎样

但其内心深处，当他孤单一人看着别人出双入对时

是否将会隐现起一份寂寞，或孤单？

回想起自己，每每飞机降落了，缓缓推行李出去的时候。。。

看着那喧哗的人群

而当心里知道就是没有人来迎接自己时

一份淡淡的孤单，会悄然涌上心头

久了，麻木了，并不代表那份孤单，消失了

只不过所谓的‘desensitisation’，而已，而已。。。

而这种感觉，也许就是差不多一样的。。。

是因为，我必须瞬间成长？

还是我的弟妹们，才是，如是？

***

在叔叔的家里，住了几天。

他们的生活，很简单，所求不多

是现实所致

但与其说是一份折磨，不如说是一份恩赐

由于家庭因素，我老是觉得，叔叔能独立工作养活自己的妻子和五个孩子

尤其在现代这样的环境，真的，真的，真的，很不容易

但他的家人也能快乐地安于现状

这，是最难得的

远离电脑和互联网的那几天

也并没有难以适应的困扰

这就是所谓的——知足常乐

***

如果上帝能给我一个愿望

我的愿望将是：希望上帝会实现我二十四岁时所下的生日愿望

我是不是，太贪心了？

Believe

Use an adjective to describe yourself...unbelievable?

Finally - MPharm - and even better - first class :)

If converted to CGPA system in Malaysia - may be actually I will only get 3,5? or 3.4? I am not sure.

Despite all the happiness and laughter, I am touched by a quote provided by my friend, very recently:

I have a friend who i knew for 7 years. Throughout the years,people come and go but we still keep close contact and be there for each other always. He is the friend who i can tell anything and everything. He is the one who open up my world and inspires me a lot. Thanks dear.i am very proud of u!! Congrats!!Jackie CK Ho — feeling proud.

So simple, yet so meaningful.

Review my life in Bath for 4 years quickly - I realise I have not just gained a degree/Master, but even better, to know myself better, to know who my true friends are, to know who I can rely on, and eventually, to shine by giving back something, either directly or indirectly, back to my family, university and society.

Dear, it is your turn now. You are always by my side when I need you, since A-Level until now - the contact time is less - yet the meaning of our friendship hopefully shines brighter and even time shall envy us.

Believe in yourself, believe in your family, believe in your friend, believe in your boyfriend :D BELIEVE

Remember the reverse of STRESSED, which you will truly deserve in the end - and you will like me, feel so blessed and amazed, to certain, by yourself.

I will send you the magical pen that you have lent me before - and eventually all your hard works will be paid off, too.

- BELIEVE -

No matter what I am, I must live my life on :)

No matter what I am, I must live my life on :)

. So . true .

Film & Matt -Paen Rai Phai Rak [FMV]

拒绝的艺术

Love come home 267

拒绝的艺术

Finished!

Yeap so happy! Finished!

However suddenly I am thinking...am I suddenly lost with what I should do next then...?

Gosh, not gonna revise again like it's exam tomorrow isn't it?

Anoh anoh...now need to start to think what I want to do with the rest of my life (lol)...

情越海岸線

Pre-arrangement by Him

Having a bit of house crisis now. Luckily God bless I suppose, I have pre-planned everything and therefore at least I will not end up homeless when my parents and aunty are supposed to come here as well.

For that I am more than grateful to my friends as well, which I can strongly rely on for all these while, emotionally, spiritually, socially and academically. Without you all, I am not who I am today.

It's half way through the exam period now. Few more to go. I planned to publish this type of statement only after all exams finish but decide to do it now. It's never too early or too late to express your deepest gratitude, I suppose.

Missing you

It's one week before the finals...

Busy sorting the house 'stuff' now...

I wonder if papa will comment anything about the recent general elections...

Mama is still my best listener. I learn the spirit to be non-judgmental from her. And in a crisis, I find out that this is a value that I will treasure, so so much...

Sorry, bro, I cannot really be your side when I thought you may need me, my links go with you, anyway...

Sorry Rou, I have been a bad listener today. Sorry for all the stress. I have to acknowledge I may be extremely upset if I am in your shoe - however 往者不可谏，来者犹可追 - try to concentrate on the future where you still can work on. And hopefully, we'll find a time when we can re-chit-chatting after these whole 'madness' has gone...

The ultimate justice, where are you?

Out of sudden, I miss all of you, so so much...

Malaysians - a day before...

The following statement extracted from a passage does not necessarily represent my political view on my home country or whatsoever.

However, I am moved and almost shed my tears when reading this, so thought to quickly share this with you.

"My dear friends, we are the same. It doesn't matter what our ethnicity is. We are Malaysians. We went to the same school. We played the same games. We enjoy the same amount of public holidays. We have the same memories. Most importantly, we share the same home. Neither of us are more Malaysian than the other. Neither of us should be made to feel that way."


Citation: http://news.malaysia.msn.com/elections/ge13-to-my-dearest-bn-supporting-friends

The story of 3 Js

Today I finally see (again)...

Don't talk to each other doesn't mean don't care anymore...

I remembered he said, I don't care...

Yet, when she's in trouble, he, still cares, doesn't he?

If she's not moved, may be even him, at the very least, I do.

FRIENDSHIP...KY!


In the end it's easier to keep a friendship frozen rather than to get it 'always warmed'...

Spring trust

Time flies...

Wound heals...

YET

Belief changes.

Trust lost.

Sun still shines.

Spring still lasts.

So as my believe, my trust.

幸福額度

Love the song. Try it.

Citation: Carol

Care of elderly - blessing late OR late blessing

Am learning about the medications or care aspects of elderly / cancer patients for these few weeks after Easter.

Suddenly feel that this is not just about giving medicines and to make sure they can be cured - there's a point when actually it's just meant to relieve symptoms rather than curing.

It's a big challege if I will have the luck to apply any of it in the future - however I am wondering how I am going to approach it if I am being asked for.

Learning about all the biological changes as you get older - wrinkles, muscle wasting...it will happen to all of us, eventually, as we are mortal - yet I think of grandma and mum suddenly in the lecture...I have to admit that I used to treat grandma quite badly just because she was...well, a bit of elderly issue - confused, sometimes get irritable easier - but I never try to understand her - only after that few lectures I suddenly realise, may be she does not want to if she has the choice either - but all the biological changes, from hair, to brain, down towards the very end of the leg - it's just part of la vie, and neither of us can have control over it.

Suddenly feel so grateful to be able to learn Pharmacy - I get to review the body systems, care aspects of individuals, which sometimes makes me to think deeper in a few aspects of life, with people surrounding me - I am sure I won't have the time to think and feel if I am a medicine student, and will only think 'this and that as part of a big system' if I am an engineer...

OK, may be I am bit sentimental, may be I am a bit too free - but sometimes being able to take a step back and think back about your life, which hopefully will give you a chance to improvise your practice and make you a better person - I believe is a blessing...

***

And the final few weeks in University - only suddenly I see that 'not every words in the lecture has to be copied down' - each person is different - just take whatever you need, especially if relevant to your life or future practice.

I am not sure whether finally:

It is a blessing yet it comes so late to my life :(

OR

It comes so late to my life yet it is a blessing :)

I think I will choose the latter. How about you? ^^



 

Moja moja ~

Managed to get this long-lost 'childhood' song after doing a search with the help of my facebook friend.

Ahh...moja moja! LOL~

Starting

Think that sometimes people worry too much on where, when and how to start.

Think the answer is simple: Just start, somewhere, sometimes, somehow...

Once you get started, only then you will be able to know what's next.

Just like what our tutor said before, don't worry too much about spelling, grammar, just 'splurge' it! Then, done!

***

Laugh at the end

A simple 'are you ok', means more than anything.

Thanks to the angel of my life.

***

Mum told me to stop worrying about the home.

Unless I stop being the son and the brother, otherwise how on earth I, will be able, to do that?

***

Finally I know he can laugh at the end.

As predicted.

'The revenge'

- 以无为胜一切行为，此时无声胜有声 -

***

You tried to do your best.

Yet sometimes not everything will run as what you want it to be.

C'est, la vie.

Don't forget why you do it on the first place, and remember to enjoy the process.

- Sigh... -

Sometimes it's better to remain silent and take the observer role, rather than kept being involved in endless arguments that just wasted our valuable ATP.

Loudest voice is not necessary the most correct one.

You may want to wait and see who is the one that going to laugh at the end...

Being direct may mean you live longer - however how many hearts have to be hurt on the first place?

 

勉强不幸福

原来感情真的是没有的勉强，不爱就是不爱。就算你在怎么感激她，也没有办法。

只因为，感情从来没有和理智随时为伍。

爱情小插曲

没有爱的能力，比没有性的能力，更可怜。

***

男：你为什么这么相信他？

女：我觉得我似乎从上个世纪就认识他了。

男：拜托，我可是从上上个世纪就认识你了。

女：怪不得我觉得我受够了。。。

A little bit of frustration

Just need someone to lessen the burden on my shoulders sometimes.

Yet why it seems...so...so...so hard, sometimes?

Not that down actually. I am not T.T...but it is a bit ._.

Anyway, need to meet a 'real patient' today for our diabetes case...gtg...ttyl...and c ya ^o^

第一次

这次是生命中的第一次，用手提电话来update 部落格。

今天上了另外一堂communication 的session。我们有又面对另外一个不愿意吃药的病人，想对症下药，解决这个问题。

生命终于遇到了好多人，一些将陪你，几乎一生。一些，则只是从来去的匆匆来去的过客。

对于那些陪我走了这么久，这么远的可爱人儿，谢谢你们！

不想在这里特意说出谁的名字，怕被批为偏心。但愿意坦诚相待的，伸手援助的，谢谢你们！

夕阳西下，海上生明月，天涯共此时 ：)

康

道德

道德的规范，是一种他律，也是一种自律。

最近看了朋友讨论道德理论的部落格，心里不敢完全苟同。

世界上有太多太多的事情，并没有绝对的对与错，真正的黑与白。

所以并没有必要太过拘谨？

当然这些都是很主观，属于我的想法。你也许不敢苟同一切，或一些，或一点。。。

最近让自己上了几趟人生的课程，重新断定了自己对爱情的看法，从而为道德的观点，在揭开了一些枷锁。。。

十七岁时，若你问我道德课题，我也许会讲解一套硬式的黑与白。
 二十三岁了，同样的问题，我会开始brainstorm，有很多方面要考虑，就像要解决pharmacy practice 的 ethics 问题一样——而最终，也许，真假对错黑白是非，再也没有铁定的界限。。。

你，看到了我所看到的overlap吗？

***

放弃和放下。。。

最后都解脱了——只是方式，不太一样而已。。。

感谢你让我学会放下：）

学校2013的大结局——姜老师终于紧紧地抓着政浩的手。

最后，政浩还是走了，临别回头看了姜老师一眼：

‘请放心，我不会过得太差的’。。。

嘴角的伤口，还是鲜血色、红红的伤口。。。

然而姜老师的心疼、无奈和恐惧，又有谁能够真正明了？
 

恋爱季节 主题曲

Life Explorer

Today my message is simple:

University is not just about academic, it's a phase of growth when you get to meet people, work, be crazy, organise gatherings, travel and hence, work out who is yourself better...

You may be able to still keep your childhood innocence but how many will stand unshattered, eventually - God knows, you know...

Be grateful. Be youthful. Be a life explorer.

 

戀愛自由式

Project's Reflection

Just been back after chatting with Shaun today, for at least 2.5 hours.

While keep thinking on how to improve my project 'draft' all the time, I suddenly realise there's so many that I 'have learnt' from it, and hence I decide to 'jot down' my thoughts instantly before I put them into the deepest side of my 'memory drawers'. However when you see this, it has been kept aside for several days before I publish this, and I choose not to put this on Facebook, as people may feel that I am 'showing off'...

Basically I was engaged in the research of the effects of hyperglycaemia (high blood glucose level) on rat aorta (blood vessel in the heart that pumps blood to the whole body) this semester. Seriously I am amazed by myself on how I was able to put those idea into my final report, which strictly speaking, I believe I would not be able to simply think about it before/during the research process itself.

I am not sure if my previous effort especially on the comprehensive library research is 'worth the effort' eventually. May be yes. Honestly speaking my research itself involved quite simple repetitive procedures. However never I would imagine that we can come up with such complicated explanation for the final result at the end...as I told you just few seconds before...

Also...I think I am one of the few 'lucky' person that really understand the meaning of 'research' now - a process of finding answer for the unknown when in fact you may not know what should come up next. Not sure if a research that you always what are you doing always, or for the next steps can be called 'research'. In my case, it is simply a case of responding to previous result. What's your result today determine what you going to do tomorrow, for example...

Also, the whole point of research, may be, is not to report everything that you do and see. It's about selecting the 'most significant' materials, relevent to your own study and apply it where/when necessary. Therefore it's not a literature review. In our research we attempted so many combinations but we only managed to report/comment on a few as others were just...insignificant? Honestly 'insignificant' is not the most correct word as well but may be because we have word count limit as well, anyway...

Honestly it's a really 'good' challenge for myself, I should admit. I also should admit I learn more from the writing up process than just doing the experiment. There's so many to consider, so many to include, so many to avoid as well, in that limited amount of space...

Watched 'Love Come Home' on 21 January (2013) and learned that there's two types of people in life - those that emphasise on outcome, and those that emphasise on process - of course a nice outcome is what everyone will naturally expect - however isn't the process itself is important as well? I used to be this kind of 'outcome' person. However, thinking the other way, even if you don't have the most favourable outcome - it's the process itself that actually made you grow maturer...

Thinking back, I'm glad I got an easy-going supervisor. He's not the best in the universe (of course) but he did attempt to help whenever suitable, as well as providing me with great flexibility so that I can fulfill other commitments, which I am grateful for...His patience and tolerance, together with my brilliant groupmates that contributed directly and indirectly as well, really made up my whole research semester. All the laughter and smile, and sometimes, worry or even frustration, would be part of my memory - may not be as grand as others - may not be as interesting as others - but that's truly mine -

C'est ma vie!

Some Questions in Life - Randomly...

While we have learnt so much about love from love dramas/movies, it's totally other's. What's your own, original view on love?

Sometimes we may face relationship crisis in our life, cause us to not be able to put our trust on some person anymore. However, is that because he/she is not trustworthy on the first place, or is it simply due to your view on him/her?

为了达到满足自己的目的而伤害了别人的，就算是再伟大的目的，也还能够心安理得吗？

***

能够真正的享受生活，也许就是存活的目的。若是如此，幸福其实，很简单。

放开了几乎时时刻刻压着自己差不多四个月的无形枷锁，重获自由——真正的享受这短暂的无压假期！感谢天、感谢地。

 

体贴

就算几乎火烧眉头，情不自禁的，还是想分享这份想法。

世界上有一种人，外冷内热，或是铁汉豆腐心。

看起来似乎难以捉摸，但其实他们的思想，并不复杂。

更重要的是，他们会顾全周到，而当他们愿意把这份心意应用在他人身上时，也许这，就是所谓的——体贴。

也许其实生活中的每一人，多多少少都会有这样的内涵。

而就是因为他们的存在， 世界上又多了一份温暖、一丝美好。



 

Ice@Bath

It's the moment for anotehr new experience in my life - iceeeeeeeee skaaaaaaaaaatinggg!!!!!!!!!! Yeay~

Thanks to mon bon ami that still willing to accompany me, on that day.

After finished my works on that day, rushed home, got changed and finally - Victoria Park Ice Skating session!

It's a small space and there was lots of people, at least that's what my friend told me. The scale was a quarter of the one that we have in Malaysia (Sunway Pyramid, specifically).

To be honest I cannot imagine how huge the ice-skating venue in Sunway will be then. Yet at least, for that moment, it did not matter.

What I expected at the end happened anyway- I managed to move but I did not master the skills at the end anyway. As usual I am not that sporty (haise...).

Surprisingly I had a great time anyway. I did 'almost' fell down for a few times but as I always travelled near the wall I always have some kind of support which was absolutely essential, at least for me.

A stranger (indeed, STRANGER) was so nice to me. When her friend was a having a break, she quickly grabbed me (of course with my permission, please lah) and brought me to swing towards the centre and make a 'round'. It's my first and last attempt to 'skate' that well to be honest.

The feeling of skating, although tiring, was wonderful and interesting to me. It's like you are walking but without your feet touching the ground. You made the move, it seems easy but actually, at least for myself, you tried so hard not to fall down, which I am not sure if it's a great idea to be honest as people do say: You need to fall before you learn to 'walk'...

The thing that amase me the most is the fact that people did support each other during the ice-skating session. People would allow you to pass through if they realise you need to. Sometimes they even make ways for me automatically as they realise I need it, at some point. People did checked if you were alright. One of the mummy even laughed at me because she gave up after her first attempt. I suppose her main purpose to come was to photograph her children anyway. She kept smiling at me and said twice or thrice (I think): 'Wow, you haven't gave up. I gave up.' Will the same thing happen if I skate at Malaysia? I can pray, honestly, but God will decide eventually, which is what usually happen, anyway...

In short I did have a great time although I did had muscle pain for about 3 days after that and had to use patches for that so that I can continue with my project (what a great student ^^)...LOL~ I am more than thankful at that moment for God to bless me with the perfect legs and everything because otherwise I would not be able to do anything above. I was wondering for example for those whom are wheelchair bound - they see the world at a different level compared to us, which is sad sometimes - as what I have learnt from 'On Call 36 Hours'...

Rou even reminded me how grateful I should be for the opportunity to choose and to have the proper university life experience. It's a chance in a lifetime. While I was showered with all the blessings, I wished her wishes can be granted as well, although I know 'kita berdoa, Tuhan menentukan'...

I may not end up having many great contacts or freunden like what some of my colleagues/friends are having. However I have those that really know me well and whom I can depend on when I need to, - which is indeed, I suppose, another genuine blessing. I know not all blessings are permanent but because of that I want to be thankful and enjoy whatever I have now. They are the one that give me the strength to move on when I feel I cannot. Perhaps most importantly, just to let me feel that 'you are not alone'. What will happen when I am back to Malaysia later then? I hope, I pray, but yeah, God will decide, at the end.

Jack x

 

心·泪·雪

以为一切都恢复平静了。。。但隐隐约约中，事实，并不是那么简单。

原来过去的害怕，仍然笼罩着。

平静地看着学校2013,悟出了这份道理。

情不自禁的，眼眶湿润了，探究原因呢，也不知道再是为了什么。。。那种看似简单却夹杂着复杂的心情，不知有谁能够了解。

过去的错，也许再那么努力，也弥补不了太多什么。

我不是世界上最伟大的，我并不想假惺惺的祝福别人，但我至少也不希望别人会怎么样。。。

世界上我们所不知道的事，比我们所知道的多——所以在评论之前，尽可能全面地为别人思考一下。这样做，不知为了别人，至少自己的心，也会说得过去。


还有，巴斯下雪了，终于下雪了。

我雀跃的心，是因为它的不寻常吗？

遇上知己

今天，较上了那份draft，终于可以松一口‘小气’了！

她的出现，让我更感激我现有的幸福。学习这一个自己有兴趣的科目。有清晰的人生目标——知道自己需要什么，不需要什么。有自由与机会选择自己先换得科系。。。虽然没有成千上万的朋友，很难与‘大家’太好，却仍然有几位能够信任，、肝胆相照、分享心事的朋友。

而真正的朋友，并不只是在你需要的时候会扶你一把。她有任何事时，你会想起她。你会好想给她打个电话。你不需要刻意寻找话题，只因普通的寒暄，胜过那些所谓的一切。

曾经，我们向望着，我们近在眼前，却形同陌路；如今，我们被山河分割两地，我们远在天边，电话上的声音，却是那么的熟悉，那么的亲切，那么的温馨。

因为信任，我们不怕分享彼此心底最深处的秘密；因为了解，我们能够以本身的生活体验隐约体会对方的点点滴滴；因为互相感性，我们相信我们的深思、我们的感情，虽有时只能眼睁睁地看着对方因本身的感情问题哭地泪如涌泉，却仍能静静递上双耳、洗耳恭听、听你由命。同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识。。。

曾经，我们是斤斤计较的完美主义者；我们因年轻而任性疯狂、而行差踏错，再而知错、而领悟、而觉悟、而成熟。

往者不可谏，来者犹可追；人有悲、欢、离、合，月有阴、晴、圆、缺——此事古难全。更因此，我们应尝试有意义的度过每一天。

 海上生明月，天涯共此时——你所看到的月亮也是我看到的月亮——没有任何文字能形容我那种能够在有限的有生之年，成功找到一个属于自己的知己， 那种似乎完整的感觉。

别忘了——你所领悟的，我所明白的，咱们珍惜的——人生最重要的，就是真正度过了一个你曾经享受过人生的人生。

今晚的夜，赏心悦目，柔情似水。。。

再叙

康

C'est la vie...S'il vous plait

This is the last few minutes for my project draft.

However, I can't help myself so I end up writing another 'emotional' letter as well...

Arrgghh, c'est la vie...Haiyoyo...

I will get better soon de. Fingers crossed. S'il vous plait.

康 儿

咪：

随着岁月的流逝，我们兄弟姐妹渐渐长大了。然而，母亲脸上的皱纹，也再也抵挡不了冬去春来，渐渐的，也越变越多了。。。

母亲，永远很简单。她要求不多，每次和她聊天，就是华人经典的问候语：‘吃饭了没？’“近来好吗？”，而她每次对我的总结更是简易：“好好照顾自己”。

几乎两年没有回去了——偶尔的思念，已不足挂齿，能听到他们熟悉的声音，已心满意足。

就在忙着的当儿，思绪的抽屉又不由自主地被打开了。随着静思的同时，只想送上感恩的祝福：

妈，生日快乐：）

儿
康





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感激遇到你

好的朋友，值得信赖的朋友——重于quality，而不是quantity。

What will I do without you all, bon amis?

感谢你们时时容纳我的不足之处。。。就如俗话说：请多多包涵：）

If you don't know me by now ...

简简单单的幸福

2013年的第一个 post : 

进早一起身就直接在床上打电话和妈聊天。

几乎三十分钟的电话。

看不见对方的脸，通过声音传达的，除了无形的笑容，就是说不尽的亲切感。

潜移默化的，关心。
 
简简单单的，幸福。

而这就是——对她、对我，最好的，祝福。